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Sorrys I haven't updated in forever. Too much going on, so many books to read..the regular speal.

So basically a lot of school and reading and soccer.

Seemed like I was going to have a study hall with only Matt (since the extras from Galle's study hall were thrown in the next room) but then his friends moved in and I've been tossed aside. It wasn't that I wasn't expecting it, but maybe it surprised me because I predicted correct? I dunno. I'm so out of my element in school.

So study hall is a dud. Post WW II isn't bad. At least, Janeway isn't, even if I have no close friends in there. Psychology is with Rachel Glynn, who gets on my nerves if she tries to talk to me too much. It's a good thing that the AMAZING subject outweighs her. PreCalc with Sautter and Washburn. Not bad but boring. All review. Lunch isn't bad, but it's sad how our table is the leftovers of the Boys Table and the Girls Table. Boo hoo.

The only really great classes I have are AP LangComp and then the accompanied Lab. Very good. Good reading. Good teachers. Good.

Then boring, too-easy Chemistry with Cooney, Colby, and Amber. Not bad. Not that good, either.

I just...I don't think I'm adjusting well. I'd much rather be at home reading textbooks posted online for reading, you know? I'm reading such beautiful, engaging books, and yet I have to drag my sorry a** to school and soccer every day.

The sad fact is: I CAN'T MAKE FRIENDS.

I absolutely HATE HATE HATE small talk. Every time someone starts, I just plaster on the fake smile and shut my ears off. I hate how they only talk because it looks like I need talking to, or something. I hate how people just "go through the notions". I don't give a ******** about what you did over the weekend; I want to know WHY you did it. I guess the reason I've been all "yay Matt Harris" is because he does just that. And I don't know why. So it bugs me and nags at me and I want to know WHY he's asking WHY.

Confused yet? I am.

Whatever. Let's skip over that painful stuff.

The games against Cony were sweeeetttt. 7-0, and then 5-3? WOOO!!!!

And then Randi and I are thinking of a rendevous at Colb's. Should be fun. I sincerely hope it will be. smile

And also, these laptops are useful. I already knew I'd love mine, but having it in my lap leeching the neighbor's internet just reinforces the feeling. heart



I don't love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday