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I've called out for an easy answer
But no one response, I feel ignored,
I'm scared to death of the outcomes,
I don't want to be alone,
No, not alone,

Am I pushing to far?
Am I not there enough?
Am I pulling the strings to your nerves to hard?
Do you feel as if used?
Or am I just thinking unreal thoughts?
Make it stop, make it stop...

I don't know what happens all the time
But it pisses me off when I'm not even included in the thoughts,
Like I'm some kind of rag doll,
Damnit, am I taking this to far?

Am I pushing to far?
Am I not there enough?
Am I pulling the strings on your nerves to hard?
Do you feel as if used?
Or am I just thinking unreal thoughts?
Make it stop, make it stop...
Do you noticed at all
When I want to be happy?
Do you listen when I speak
or am I not clear?
Do I cause an explotion
that you silently hold inside yourself?
Are you even telling the truth?

I don't want to push to far
And I want to be there for you all of the time
I don't want to pull those strings to hard
And you know I truly need you,

Am I really just crazy?
Am I really just insane?
Why do I want to hurt them, things, and myself...when I feel this way.

Make it stop

Make It stop

Make it stop.