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My will is set in stone, I do not want to die alone,
and even though i try and try Im always failing to atone,
For all my sins that I commit, it is so obvious to see,
that all the sh*t that made my being is now weighing down on me

Now everybody knows the hardships of trying to come out first,
and there is always someone bigger who makes you feel like the worst,
When motivation comes around you hope to not be the last,
you try to avoid results and run away from there fast.

Now I aint saying this is the average life of teens,
Im just saying some sh*t in life is just too obvious it seems,
I may be exaggerating, maybe its just me, I try not to hate on myself but come take a look and see

I help friends to lie to they friends, what does that seem like outside,
I try to keep no loose ends, so it is them i confide
But I go to extreme length's so I cant ever go again,
To the life I once knew, If still there Ive met my end.


Now your back in your room, your tryin to feel better,
All the sh*t that you have experianced has burnt your life redder,
Now you sit in the dark wishing your tears away,
Whispering to yourself that this is an average day,
Now I apologize for sadness I know i aint the best,
Yo F*ck it I wrote this f*cking song while I was depressed,
Cause i knew some things in school were eating at my chest.