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Hello. I know I havent been on much lately. Its cause alot of stuff has happened. I know no one actually reads this so its like a dairy to me. If any one actually DOES read this you can all you want I dont mind. Well in my last entries I talked about me finnaly for once not moving. Of course it wasnt true. Yes i did move. Sorry for not telling you but i was so upset. I was looking foward so much to going to school at my old school. It hurts when I call it my old school but if I dont no one will know the difference. I was actually going to go for student counsel this year. Every year we had a evil person win. They only did it for the reputation and yearbook spots. I wanted it so are homeroom could actually know about important stuff and win spirit days......... I miss that school so much. Its not like i moved that far away though. im still in the same state just a new part. I live closer to all my friends to. But i dont see them everyday. I dont talk to them everyday. Some dont even talk to me anymore. Some avoid me. I had to go through my old town the other day while they were still in school and all there busses were driving by and of course my stepdad was being a jerk and said "hey why arent you on the bus? oh thats right you dont go there anymore. i bet there happier now." I couldnt stand it. i was crying so much but he didnt know. I wonder if there happier though. Its good if they are. I really was annoying. I only was me with my friends and that was wrong. I wanted so much to be more confident but its so hard when your surrounded by people so different than your used to. Im pretty sure im being stalked by a midget. He makes it seem like to everyone that we're dating when I never would. He reminds me of my little brother. I feel so scared there and every morning i feel like crying. My bus actually passes my old bus stop. So much has happened there. Some of my favorite memories but not all. I feel so selfish when I talk about myself. I do it way to much sorry. I feel selfish when I miss my friends to. I want to be with them but I should better then anyone that you barley ever get what you want and that things always change. Ive moved 8 or 9 times so i know.