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I uploaded more music today. That totals it up to over 120 songs. It ranges from everyday musicians to video game music, to anime music.

I am a bit lonely, though. There's no one around.. Nor yesterday, either. I had trouble sleeping, for I had an uneasy feeling. Five hours later, I got up.

Rubbing my arm instinctively, I realized how cold my body really was. I myself didn't know how freezing I was until then. My body must've been at least below seventy or eighty degrees. Though I have no clue of my normal body temperature, seeing as I have trouble keeping heat.

It was seventy degrees in the house, by the way.

I wonder what I was dreaming of... Whatever it was, I think it must have been a bad one.

Then I had trouble keeping myself at the right temperature all day.

I'm sad, too. Not one person talked to me today. I ended up talking to Sean for about a total of three minutes. Other than that, no contact on the computer from my friends, or phone calls from them either. Hmm.

So I've been on since three in the morning. The tips of my fingers hurt a little. I've been typing and scrolling so much, my the tips on my right are starting to have a sort of numb, pin-needle, crushing pain. Mostly numb pain, though. My left doesn't hurt as much. Wish someone could make it feel better. But it is my fault I guess.

I've been a little dizzy, too. But that's 'cause I'm on my monthly and I haven't eaten much the past two days. One tends to loose any form of appetite when there's no one to eat it with.

I don't want to be cold when I wake up.. Or be up, night and night again...... With little sleep.. And too many thoughts buzzing in my head.. I feel like I'm never going to sleep again, and always be tired. I sleep anywhere from 15 minutes to 14 hours. Though it usually ranges from a) 2-5 hours, b) 7-10 hours or c) 15m - 1 hour.

Rather, I want to be embraced with someone I love while I sleep. Then I can finally sleep peacefully - fully. No bad dreams, no coldness, no uneasiness, no emptiness. I hate my bed, too. It's so small, and always cold, with no one to share it with but my stuffed animals that can't even offer me warmth. My electric blanket does that.. Not that it's very good at regulating my temp.

Feelings: Sad, a little depressed, lonely, and neglected. A bit happy on the other hand. Tired! ~Yawn.

- Chuu ~!