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Most of the time there are things we cannot share with others because we do not want to be laughed at. Thus, we have to hide the truth and avoid it by fixing it, making it sound better or even creating another "truth" - a lie.

I'm no longer a girl yet deep down inside me still exists a very young girl, who has kept dreaming in her own fantasy. Partly, I want to kill off that girl, I want her to get out of my life. Partly, I do not want to lose her at all since she is like the reason to keep me strong, cheerful and healthy.

The real life sometimes makes me so tired, although I know I should not be because my life is still a lot better than thousands of people, yet a person can never be too greedy to ask for true happiness... Therefore, my own imaginary world has been created! In that world, I can see a life which I've always dreamed of... it sounds big but it is not. It is very simple, very smooth, very nice...

I guess every girl who reads this will know what I mean...

Men can never really know what a woman wants. What they know very well is that they will achieve whatever they want no matter what, even if it may tear out a heart, even if it may bring a lot of teardrops to the eyes, even if it may strike someone to fall really hard on her knees... Typically, women should just forget it and accept it as "the truth behind a lie"...

I'm not trying to stereotype... it's just that I am confused... very... I've always been confused and I wonder when I will be able to stop all of this confusion, because I'm getting so tired of it... Those three words do have two faces... They have this scarily huge power that can hypnotize and blind people. I wonder if I should ever listen to these three words anymore... Yeah~ shut up!