I realized something. There is someone in my life who I can't bear to look at anymore, not because I hate her or anything, it's just that every time I see her it makes me think about myself in a new perspective that I HATE with an extreme passion. She makes me think of myself in the sense of that I am what I fear to be, a failure and she would be the imagery of a me who took what can be called the 'right turns' and that makes me angry. I'm angry enough as it is, seeing as though even saying this is the best week of my life won't help, seeing as though I know I have so much to learn about my friends and even my family... and sometimes.... I feel like letting go of the ledge called life, that means, if my life was a cliff and I the hanger, I would want to let go, and fall endlessly...into true peace, but I don't know what I would find at the bottom... Hell if it exists, or.. Limbo, the realm of unseen torture, which would be the nightmare of reality even for Lucifer.
 Nocturnal Majesty · Tue Feb 16, 2010 @ 06:45am · 1 Comments |
