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Life without
This time I know there's no way back. Left alone, abandoned, without any chance in tomorrow. You're gone forever. As I try to find a reason for this, endlessly wondering why you burned away all I was living for. Remembrances are all I still own of you. As I lie in my bed, drunk, confused. Flashes of our past passing before my eyes. Just like dying, endlessly dreaming of you, dreaming of forgotten words and smiles. Trying to push away the need to harm myself. I feel is growing deep inside of me, I feel I will have to carve this pain upon my skin. Loneliness arises from the past. As I try to sleep to heal this madness, but this bed now seems to be like my tomb. I keep on dreaming of past years. I can't feel that warmth anymore. You turned my existence in a terminal disease. I know all I once called life ends today, as you disappear forever all emotions inside of me are dead and gone. I can't stand this silence, but now I'm alone. Where have you gone when I needed you?
Dear God, Please make me Die. |
