I don't know
but I can't tell you
And I want it
but I'm scared
You said
Last
Chance?
How do I know I'm not grasping at a
futile rope that has no
tether?
You want me to
show you initiative
How?
WHAT
DO
I
DO
FOR
YOU
...?
I want to hold a bit longer but am afraid
You may draw back without me
leaving me hanging like a
solo high-five, or hugging a mirror
How do I tell you
My secrets
or how much pain
or how much love
or how much anger
or how much worry
If I feel like something that someone is once again testing to see if they don't even know?
Will I be
inadequate
a liar
a fool
desperate?
Am I just a rebound...
Object?
For those you claimed to hate having not gone with before
around the corner
out of sight
out of mind
out of comfort
away from me?
I am
scared
nervous
jovial
loving
terrified
of you
It's
too fast
too soon
too much
for me to take in
I cried over him again last night
Keep saying it's the last time
The one who has my heart and won't give it back
You said last chance
Why did you sound unaffected?
Like I didn't matter
He was perfect
my image of security
of everything I loved and
thought loved me back
It's been a year
and he can't even know
what I mean.
Can't even feel
because he never apologized
He never loved me back
My rivers spent on him are dry
draught
you won't want me
He's gone, unable to be rechecked
Images of a happy life with him
GONE
AND NEITHER OF YOU UNDERSTAND
HOW SCARED I AM
HOW TERRIBLE IT FEELS
You don't want me anymore
You can't make me forget
Because you can't
And won't
Love me
They say teenage heartbreak isn't really breaking of the coronary vessel
They say it's hormones
But when you imagine a happy life with someone who doesn't care and you think they do
When they know you love them
And get your hopes up
Then let you down?
I just need him
To tell me he realizes
how I feel
and apologize
So many things wrong with me
So many
I can't handle you like this
because you will never know
no matter how many times I tell you
There's more that belongs here.
But it'll just be over a million words before I get my point across.
 Marli-oneechan · Sat Apr 03, 2010 @ 04:00am · 0 Comments |
