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Born and brought in to this world I don't belong.
Even when I'm with friends ..... I can feel a little uncomftorable.
I was innocently born into this world full of hate and war like many others.
The most prosperous country is greedy no matter how peaceful it is..
When your fighting for your rights, all you ever wished for is kites flying.
You watch the sun come up and down.
365 1/4 times 15 equals estimately five thousand four hundred seventy-five days living on a world of pain.
Barely seeing the outside world when your young is hard.
Your parents scared care for you the most being there first born.
Watching the world through movies and t.v. you wish to experience the world.
PLaying in the backyard pretending to be spider-man,
just to fend off your arachnaphobia.
Going to school... for the first time afters years of being pampered by your parents your out in the world.
You wish to go home.
Talking about gangs guns and knives you call the cops for the beating your parents gave you hoping and wishing it was illegal.
Growing up learning discipline the hard way watching rich kids from the world crying and getting what they want you walk...
Working hard everyday for the little things in life you try to commit suicide.
but yet... your too weak since you lack the strength to actuall y do as your told.
growing up thinking your own thoughts and finally given the freedom of speech you wish you never asked because evryone looks back at you and glares with their eyes at you for being different.
Is pain life. Is evryone being mean bullying you and doing want they want and saying what they want to you no matter how racist it is life...?
Told by the smartest, the blackest the whitest the skinniest the tallest, the cutest the ugliest all these foolish lies, life..?
what is a life?
is being mestreated a life?
can evil or living on evil be called a life? and if it isn't what exactly is the life?
especially if your not greedy like the rest with their disgustingly bruised and yelling dying and decaying festering hands clawing at you?
life.......