At first, I simply shared mirth with her. I saw her as a mere confidante, someone who made me feel felicity in the smallest of things. Yet as time passed by, I started to distinguish her as something more. The attraction that I started to acquire for her was undeniably present. I strived to cease myself from developing further sympathetic appreciation for this girl, for I was aware of the fact that I shouldn’t pursue the feelings I was developing for her since I knew that I would severely aggrieve the individual who relished my presence in her life, and I just couldn’t bear the thought of causing someone that much grief and receive immensely peccant feedback from others. Though, I was still unable to congest the seemingly rather addictive passion that has generated throughout my whole being. I eventually actualized that I am impotent of avoiding this girl, for she has subdued me far more than any other being ever could. She had become a necessity, a prerequisite factor to satisfy me. And not only that, but I evidently wanted her be kept in my arms, in my attainable grasp. I’ve become rather possessive of her. She’s something that I’m just unwilling to share. I know it’s quite selfish of me to be so but my attachment to her had amplified so vastly that I wanted her all to myself. On the contrary, I am very much aware that, that isn’t proper. I let her do what she pleases, what she enjoys for her happiness is relative to my complete passive state of pleasure. I never contemplated to win her over that way, but I’m surely gratified to have her with me. Now I lack nothing. Now I am completely intact. She has molded me into someone with extensive morality. I’m sure as hell stronger now when it comes to my encounters with the quite judgmental and harsh society, though when it comes to her I am still vulnerable. I am entirely enamored by this girl, despite our dissensions. I have promised to stay by her side even at the most complicated and intolerable situations. Said unavoidable dangers have just contrived us to strengthen our trust with each other. I don’t believe I can ever find enough time to articulate this providential feeling I’ve attained of retaining her. Leaving her is something that’s impossible, something that I am disinclined to result to. She is, and eternally will be the solitary love of my life. I’m in this infatuation too deep to ever surface and even if I could, I doubt that I’d ever desire to. As much as I don’t deserve you, I just can’t see myself with your absence, Sandy Reyes.
I love you so much Sandy :3
I love you so much Sandy :3
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