why are we here?
were we just an accident?
a mistake?
No,wait was I just a
mistake?
if so, why me?
if not, why treat me
like you do?
being the mistake i am,
dose that mean there's no one
out there for me?
No one to hold, kiss or comfort?
no other half, to make a family
with? well, i don't care.
i will beat the odds against me
and find love.Hell, I've already
found it.But still you doubt it,saying
no one my age knows what
love is.
love is looking in their eyes
and suddenly there's nothing else
that matters.When the vary thought
of them dieing leaves you
on the verge of tears and thinking
which way to go;
classically: jumping or hanging
maby drowning?or
contemporary: stabbing or shooting
love is when their voice
is all it takes to brighten
your day.
when in the middle of class
you suddenly think of
that person and you laugh,
no matter what your doing
life is where you fear death
but love is
where the world could
end,you could end, and it wouldn't
even matter,as long as
that person is safe,secure
you start falling,
you want it to
STOP. some
times your scared,
so scared that you just
run.other times you
embrace the fear,
embrace the unknown
and if it comes to it,
embrace the pain.
its where their
smile could stop you
in your tracks, leaving
you in a daze, staring
off, a house cat
staring at the world
It cant have.
there's this longing
more then water,
even air and if its
not quenched the pain
gets unbearable and
you just have to see
with your own eyes,
that their not a figment of
your crawl,dark,
even evil imagination.
But when you lose it,
like i have done,
every thing comes
crashing down,
falling, feeling like the
pain will never end,
the tears will never
stop. they keep on
flowing, falling.
i don't want to
sleep, for i will
dream about
the person,I
wake crying, screaming
for things to go back
to the way they were,
the happiness to
come back.
and yet, i
don't want to wake
for the dream will
end, and life is a
Disappointment.
you want to be in the
land between
the land where you are
awake and yet
asleep, alive and yet dead.
Numb.final the pain
is gone , only to come
back, some times worse,
other times less.
some times you stay
friends, other times
you hate each other
other times you
realize that you cant
live without the
other.but what if your
the only one who misses
the other?
the only one who
wishes to tare their
heart out? the only one
who wishes to crawl in
a dark hole and never
come out? the only
one who regrets the
decision that you
made? the decision that
riped your heart out.
you feel like you are
the only one who ever
felt this way,
the only broken child.
But know this,
you are not alone in
this world, for there
are many others, broken.
But for every broken
child, there is an equally
broken one, with thread
and a needle, some times
a glue gun.
But in a vary rare
case, you never find
the one your looking
for, maby they died, maby
they fell for somebody else
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My Fail Of A Life
this journal is a story about my life. everything that has and will happen 2 me will be in this journal. if u can help me then thank you.
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