This past week has been a little hard, I have never been more mad at myself, and I have never felt this terrible ever. Im a b***h, a big one, and I dont deserve a lot of what I have. Last night was when everything peaked. My mom told me that she was going to call him... She told me that she didnt want me to be there when she did it because of how emotional she knew it would be for me. She knows me too well. I was so nice to my great grandma all day yesturday that I spent at home, alone.
And when she fell it took us a while to realize wha thappened. I wasn't ready for all of it just last night. I was so happy, its not even that big of a deal. But I think I'm finally realizing that I need to change. And it didn't help getting on facebook, I have been creying almost non stop since I woke up this morning. I want him so bad right now. He always cheers me up, not Tyler. Though Im totally stuck on him right now. I want Matt right now, I remembred when I was in english before school ended and I would talk to him about everything.
My great grandma is fine, her blood pressure is fine, it was just because of the two nitro's that she took last night that made her fall and the pain isnt really explained still but, shes fine.
Kayluhh ate yo crackerz Community Member 
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