I gave u bits && pieces b4 but Ive neva really expressed myself the way i really needed 2...Well all of that ends right now...
Itz about time 4 me 2 come clean...&& juss tell da story...
I came 2 Gaia...&& within my first 2 weeks here i became addicted...Addicted 2 the 2nd lifestyle u can create here...the items, the games, the clothes...&& the people...I made many friends, but one person in particular...YOU...You got me addicted && kept me comin back eva since...
We started talkin...got a lil closer...&& a lil closer each day...u had good conversation...a great personality...a sexii asz face && a bangin asz bodii dat made me go "Oh HELL yeah"...dis iz da 1 4 me! && best of all...u seemed 2 showed da same interest n me 2...
As time passed && we spent long days talkin...&& even longer nights freakin (our fav. thing 2 du ;]) our feelings grew && da L-word entered our "advanced friendship" shocking us both...I FELT LIKE I WAS ON TOPPA DA ******** WORLD!!! MY NAME HAS ALWAYS BEEN DA QUEEN BUT RIGHT AT THAT MOMENT WAS THE VERY 1ST TIME I TRULY FELT LIKE 1!!! The only bad thing was...i juss didnt no how much of a CASANOVA u were back then...
Jus in case u dnt no who Casanova was...He was da Romeo type...he had a smooth way with words&& he knew exactly what the women wanted to hear && what 2 du 2 capture their hearts...(not 2 mention he knew howta put it down n da bedroom...) && last but not least he was UNABLE 2 COMMIT 2 1 girl && BE 100% FAITHFUL...
Anyways...around this time is when the siddidy lil girlfriends of urs came n2 play...there i was poor lil Nino...sittin back watchin u hurtin these hoes && gettin hurt by these hoes all while i was ******** DYIN inside...i mean really...DYIN....but i neva sed a word...i LOVED u sooooo much that i only wanted 2 c u happy...even if it meant i hadta b hella sad...
Somewhere along da line we kept makin love && eventually u knocked me up xD lolz...&& i took da proud title of "Ya Babi Mama"...it felt so good havin u takin me around tellin all ya friends dat u lovez me && 2 touch mi belly && feel ya future child...yet && still...u kept talkin 2 otha girls...u kept gettin girlfriends...&& u kept pushin me 2 da side...but at da same time u kept tellin me dat im da special 1...da 1 dat u love...&& i kept on believin it && lovin u bacc...
After a while of goin thru constant fights n confrontations with all those lil hoes...i mean...ya gurlfriends...no matta how heated it got...u neva let em disrespect me...&& u finally gave dem trifilin chics a break && gave me my shot...we got 2getha...it was my dream come tru =]...
(Ugh...it was right afta u got thru wit dat Olivia b***h...she was da worst hoe i hadta deal with...she was 2 ******** jealous...UGH...but anyways...)
We went strong fa a few months...maybe about 2 1/2...till ya lil friends started causin problems...&& of course ya hoes hated me...simply cuz i had u...den eventually We ended...somehow...da timing and reason we ended is all a blurr...i really dnt rememba...but i figured dat u moved on...&& i REALLY couldnt sit there && watch u b all on dem hoes dat really dont love u (cuz if dey loved u it wudnt always b so many STUPID problems...&& datz real...) i cudnt get pushed 2 da side again...so i left...i left gaia...&& i planned 2 leave ur life completely...as painful as it was...i was tired of all da drama...
But...u wouldnt let me...u wrote me...got mi facebook email...&& mi numba & told me how much u really loved me && neva wanted 2 loose me, even if i did leave gaia...(meltin mi heart && refillin all my love back up 2 da top 4 u...)
U held on 2 ya promise 2...callin me...writin me on fb...still mi same ol Papa =]...
But the thing dat pissed me off was... i was neva told u had a gf...i hadta find out by her writin all kinda s**t under my comments on ya facebook page...dat was sum bullshit...den i come back 2 gaia...FOR YOU...&& find out u married 2 ha on here...&& shes ya girlfriend in RL... :/ like wtf?!?!
But anyways...wat u du iz jus wat u du...u da same nikka u always been...Mi Casanova...
Main point iz...seein u with otha bitches HURTS...it hurts me bad...especially when itz stupid bitches who play wit ya heart && hurt ya feelins && u gotta seek mi advice && support on howta handle dem...dey dnt deserve u && u dnt deserve da bullshit...
Babe...i still love u like da 1st day we started sayin it...even thru all dis s**t we been thru...even thru ya dark past && u changin n2 da person u r now...even thru me feeling betrayed && used && hurt IM STILL HERE...but...theres only so much i can take babe...i really dnt wanna run again...like i did da 1st time...&& i'll du wateva it takes 4 love...
Iz ya love really worth all da pain?
