Everything blends together to be the same with me. How long has it been? It seems like years. 7, 8,9 months? I dont even know. I dont even care. Shes going to leave me. Oh god that will be it. Please let something finnaly click in her head to tell her what shes doing. What shes really doing. She keeps saying, I wont leave you here with her. I wont leave you here I cant leave you here I wont I wont. She is telling herself. She will run. She is going to run. I want to run. I have no one to run with. I have nowhere to run to. I am doing everything i can sweetie. Donot blame me, this is your fault! If you had just waited, it would have gotten better! But no, you had to be overly dramatic! You messed all of my plans up! Do not let her tell you that, this is none of your fault. Its all hers. If shed have gotten us out when it was possible, everything would be fine. Everything would be fine. Dont worry, he will be here soon and we will all live together, we will even take your dog kimi. he will be here soon. 7,8,9 months is it? Or 10, I just dont know. January, March, Possibly June. Hopfully by christmas. Where are you?? You have to come save us before she leaves me.
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