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i hate being put in this position. i'm forcing myself to let go of the one person i need in my life. you're the only thing that makes sense, but at the same time, the one thing that complicates me. i know that i'm better off without you, but i feel empty

I don't know how much longer I can take this. You run through my mind like there's no tomorrow, I don't know when there's a second when I'm not thinking about you. it's like your haunting me or something and the worst part is you're not even mine.

there was a girl i used to know but i haven’t seen her in awhile. she was beautiful, smart, confident, free spirited. she could turn an uneasy silence into a conversation. she could make you smile just like that, and she could even make you cry just like that. she felt like she could change the world, paint it different colors. she could conquer anything. she believed in fairy tale's, dreams, and love. until that day when he took his love away. her smile faded and turned to tears. and now that the tears have run dry she feels empty, lonely, even though she’s not alone. her pride has faded. her hope seems lost. she doubts herself, no longer feels worth or beautiful. now the silence is her own. her eyes have dulled. her laugh is forever changed. the colors she tries to paint are now dried up and grey. her dreams have disappeared. her fairytale is just a memory that’s long gone all because he took his love away. i miss that girl. i wonder if she’ll ever be the same.


First off, I'm going to put my feelings for you aside and be a good friend because kid, you're one hell of a kickass friend. Next, as stupid as this is to say, I will wait for you. When you decide you want me, just lemme know. I'll be ready.

This is why I don't even chase after the people I want. If it's meant to be, I'll have them someday. Maybe not now, maybe in ten years. It seems like when I chase it, it just gets so much further ahead and I get tired. I can't run for that long.

Will he love you like I loved you? Will he tell you everyday? Will he make you feel like your invincible with every word he'll say? Can you promise me that this was right? Don't throw it all away. Can you do all these things? Will you do all these things? Like we used to.
Like we used to - A rocket to the moon

As we wake up in your room, your face is the first thing I see. The first time I've seen love & the last I'll ever need.
Kissing in cars- pierce the veil

I never told you, I just held it in & now, I miss everything about you. I can't believe that I still want you & after all the things we've been through I miss everything about you.
colbie

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me. I still feel your touch in my dreams. Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why without you it's hard to survive.
Cascada- everytime we touch












i hate being put in this position. i'm forcing myself to let go of the one person i need in my life. you're the only thing that makes sense, but at the same time, the one thing that complicates me. i know that i'm better off without you, but i feel empty

I don't know how much longer I can take this. You run through my mind like there's no tomorrow, I don't know when there's a second when I'm not thinking about you. it's like your haunting me or something and the worst part is you're not even mine.

there was a girl i used to know but i haven’t seen her in awhile. she was beautiful, smart, confident, free spirited. she could turn an uneasy silence into a conversation. she could make you smile just like that, and she could even make you cry just like that. she felt like she could change the world, paint it different colors. she could conquer anything. she believed in fairy tale's, dreams, and love. until that day when he took his love away. her smile faded and turned to tears. and now that the tears have run dry she feels empty, lonely, even though she’s not alone. her pride has faded. her hope seems lost. she doubts herself, no longer feels worth or beautiful. now the silence is her own. her eyes have dulled. her laugh is forever changed. the colors she tries to paint are now dried up and grey. her dreams have disappeared. her fairytale is just a memory that’s long gone all because he took his love away. i miss that girl. i wonder if she’ll ever be the same.


First off, I'm going to put my feelings for you aside and be a good friend because kid, you're one hell of a kickass friend. Next, as stupid as this is to say, I will wait for you. When you decide you want me, just lemme know. I'll be ready.

This is why I don't even chase after the people I want. If it's meant to be, I'll have them someday. Maybe not now, maybe in ten years. It seems like when I chase it, it just gets so much further ahead and I get tired. I can't run for that long.

Will he love you like I loved you? Will he tell you everyday? Will he make you feel like your invincible with every word he'll say? Can you promise me that this was right? Don't throw it all away. Can you do all these things? Will you do all these things? Like we used to.
Like we used to - A rocket to the moon

As we wake up in your room, your face is the first thing I see. The first time I've seen love & the last I'll ever need.
Kissing in cars- pierce the veil

I never told you, I just held it in & now, I miss everything about you. I can't believe that I still want you & after all the things we've been through I miss everything about you.
colbie

I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me. I still feel your touch in my dreams. Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why without you it's hard to survive.
Cascada- everytime we touch

I will bring a mirror, so silver, so exact. So precise and so pristine, a perfect pane of glass. I will set the mirror up to face the blackened sky. You will see your beauty every moment that you rise
You are the moon - The hush sound

If I could, for just one night, to be with you, to make it right. What we were, and what we are, is hidden in the scars.

If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose, if i'm not that arrow to the heart of you,if you don't get drunk on my kiss, if you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done. Let's not drag this on consider me gone

Baby you're beautiful & it's nothing wrong with you. It's me, I'm a freak. But thanks for loving me because you're doing it perfectly.

When did we fall apart or did you lie from the start ?When you said, it's only you. I was blind, such a fool thinking we were unbreakable

they said we stood a little too close stared a little bit too long they probably thought we had a little thing for each other but no, that would be silly.

Sometimes I sit and stare at my phone just thinking about how much I want to text you. But then I think about all of the reasons why we don't talk anymore and the way you used to treat me and I realize that I'm better off without you

The days will always be brighter because he existed. The nights will always be darker because he's gone. And no matter what anybody says about grief and about time healing all wounds, the truth is: there are certain sorrows that never fade away until the heart stops beating and the last breath is taken.

Every time again I'm afraid that you won't be there, that you have left to never come back again. You're not even mine and though every day I'm afraid to loose you. And goodbye is the hardest part, every time again. Seeing how you walk away, without looking back. I'm afraid you'll one day will do that for good.

I woke up with two new messages this morning. One was from you telling me that you missed me and the other was from him, telling me how he cant wait to see me again. I deleted your message, simply because I'm done with your bullshit. I no longer miss you & am completely over you. Then i responded to his message, with a smile on my face

Stop with the bullshit. If you want to be my friend,be it. If you don't,goodbye. It's as simple as that.

Love comes to those who still hope although they've been disappointed, to those who still believe although they've been betrayed, to those who still love although they've been hurt before.
If I could, for just one night, to be with you, to make it right. What we were, and what we are, is hidden in the scars.

If i'm not the one thing you can't stand to lose, if i'm not that arrow to the heart of you,if you don't get drunk on my kiss, if you think you can do better than this then i guess we're done. Let's not drag this on consider me gone

Baby you're beautiful & it's nothing wrong with you. It's me, I'm a freak. But thanks for loving me because you're doing it perfectly.

When did we fall apart or did you lie from the start ?When you said, it's only you. I was blind, such a fool thinking we were unbreakable

they said we stood a little too close stared a little bit too long they probably thought we had a little thing for each other but no, that would be silly.

Sometimes I sit and stare at my phone just thinking about how much I want to text you. But then I think about all of the reasons why we don't talk anymore and the way you used to treat me and I realize that I'm better off without you

The days will always be brighter because he existed. The nights will always be darker because he's gone. And no matter what anybody says about grief and about time healing all wounds, the truth is: there are certain sorrows that never fade away until the heart stops beating and the last breath is taken.

Every time again I'm afraid that you won't be there, that you have left to never come back again. You're not even mine and though every day I'm afraid to loose you. And goodbye is the hardest part, every time again. Seeing how you walk away, without looking back. I'm afraid you'll one day will do that for good.

I woke up with two new messages this morning. One was from you telling me that you missed me and the other was from him, telling me how he cant wait to see me again. I deleted your message, simply because I'm done with your bullshit. I no longer miss you & am completely over you. Then i responded to his message, with a smile on my face

Stop with the bullshit. If you want to be my friend,be it. If you don't,goodbye. It's as simple as that.

Love comes to those who still hope although they've been disappointed, to those who still believe although they've been betrayed, to those who still love although they've been hurt before.