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Yes I realize all my other entries happen to be gone.
I deleted them with rage.
RAAGGGEEEEE.
I happen to be in pain right now in my gut and I feel like I'm going to puke. This is going to be my only entry... So unless I go through something or I'm not talking or you notice a change in my behavior don't even go here.

And I've been in raging anger for a while now. I don't quite know why, probably because I'm getting better and remembering more and it's sort of starting to piss me off. Also, it happens to concern me that everyone is sad in some way. In my generation, everyone is sad in some way because everyone wants someone to feel bad for them and give them attention. After all, sadness is a feeling. Everyone everywhere feels it. Just some more than others.

I am actually quite mad at myself right now. I'm not quite sure why. Oh shut up yes you are why. I don't always like to tell myself why I'm mad because I either don't want to think about it or I think other people can figure it out themselves if they really want to know.

I just got done helping someone for today. Sadly she was exactly as I thought she would be. I was hoping she wouldn't be that sad but it turned out she was. I feel terrible for all these people but I also feel bad for them because they feel bad for me because I am:
"The Therapist."
People think it causes stress and sadness which is partly true so they feel bad for me but I like people. They make me remember I'm not alone. When I'm alone I feel unwanted, unloved, but okay in the end.

Hold on I think I might puke be right back...

Okay back. Dear god it hurts... Now. I have a few more things to say:

1. Don't feel bad for me. I'm not worth the time.
2. Don't come after me, I won't make you happy.
3. I know I doubt myself but I can't really help that.
4. You can do whatever you want as long as it makes you happy.
5. I hate pink.
6. I like shiny things.
7. I get distracted easily.
8. I get hurt easily.
9. But sadly most people don't know that.
10. I fall in love easily.
11. I depend too much on other people when I know I shouldn't.
12. If you're reading this I'm sure you're confused.
13. No one deserves pain and suffering from anything.
14. I don't care if it's a part of life I don't like it.
15. SOMEDAY.. OVER THE RAINBOW... Sorry I got distracted.
16. I get cold easily.
17. Don't make it your job to take care of me because it's not fair for you.
18. Don't take responsibility for me.
19. Don't let me stress you out.

20. Be careful with yourself.... And me.


- Thank you.