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Years and years go by
tears fall from the sky
and nothing changes

She walks in the meadows of a field
thinking,drinking, trying to feel
"Is this a dream", she asked herself mentally.
"I must be dead".

Touching the flowers as she goes by
she remembers why she came here
and once again her tears fall

Shes wearing a white dress
that flows in the wind as she walks gracefully
no shoes, just the feel of barefeet, peace

through the trees beyond the meadow
is her exit, her home
but she doesnt want to go there
she wants to stay here, walk

shes all alone in this beautiful place
not another person within a mile trace
yet she talks

shes empty, she cant feel
no matter how hard she trys
shes a container, no life
or thats how she feels, gone

in her stomache lies a mistake,
nine months from now it will come into the world
live a life she once lived, as a mistake

this new life will carry the memories
a pure reminder that 'he' saw her as nothing, a waste
She will tell this child nothing, mouth shut
It will never know what her parents failed to hide from her, she was a mistake

This child will not know its real father
will never know who that piece of trash was
this new life, this child, will live better
then 'he' could provide.

"I need to move on", she thought through all the rambling.
"I mustn't think about this, about him".
"I will carry on in the depths of this meadow", she concluded.

She is a peaceful girl, never ment for any of this to happen
but she has no control, she cant help who decides to come a long next
her only thoughts when she sees them is "Will he be just like the rest?"

Memories flood her thoughts
tears fall to the ground like acid rain
shes in pain, she cant take it

She rushes to the edge of the meadow, looks beyond the trees
she grabs her next bottle
takes a swig and drinks away its contents, her life

The meadow is no longer peaceful
it is a place of darkness, a nightmare
memories fill the once beautiful spaces of this place, this nature

She needs to leave, get out
she stumbles to the center of the meadow, falls
she cant make it to the other side, she cant walk

She lays there, staring at the sky, she has given up
lost with no hope, she doesnt care anymore, this life means nothing.
So drinks away the last bit of life she carried, no more worries
Darkness falls, eyelides closed, shes gone.

She is at peace.

FLutter, open, light.
Birds chirp, little animals run by her.
She smiles

She stands up, she walks, she looks
shes still in the meadow, how can this be? Shes dead.
It doesnt matter.
Shes happy now.

She walks around, letting the breeze lift her hair.
Touches the little white rabbits,
they all gather around her.
"Look beyond the meadow, child", says an unfamiliar voice.

Shes startled, she looks around, she sees nothing.
The voice repeats itself, "Look beyond the meadows, child."
She turns to face behind her.

White, light, bright.
"Shes beautiful, she must be an angel", she thought.
A woman steps into the meadow from the darkness of the forrest.
"Welcome, my child", the beautiful angel says.

She is beautiful, like a delicate flower.
She stands with pride, walks with grace.
Holds a promise

Her hair long and silky, flows with the wind
each step she takes sprouts a flower
She is pure.

She remembers how she ended up here, and she no longer regrets it.
"Stop child, you are not dead yet, you have another chance, a second chance,
if you would just take it, I beg you do. Tis not your time, my dear. Just look beyond the meadow,
you will see what awaits you", says this magnifcant creature, an angel.

The girl listens, turns, looks.
Shes sees her house, her father, her sister.
Loving carrying, not ready to let her go.
She makes her choice, she walks past the angel to the new opening of the trees.
and so she goes
Beyond the Meadow.