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so far i have stumbled upon life's series of misfortune's and it has just been a pure hellhole...and im letting go of all that matters, of all that has ever mattered...going to sleep at night, knowing that if i was to go peacefully in my sleep, my death wouldnt affect a single one person,just lets me know how much bullshit i have to put up with, for it all to go to waste.....i have lost just about all hope and no one should have ever been through even half of the s**t that i've been trhough...life so far-
A gigantic black Hell-hole.....
At the end of the rainbow of life, there is no gold, there is NOTHING, that nothing is death, so why work your a** off, get stepped on and thrown around, bust your balls trying to live your own life and just stay out evrybody else's if all of it goes down the damned drain? you go through so much s**t in life, waiting to see the end of the road and when you finally do, theres nothing there except epmty dissapointment...and thats ******** up. its like once you think you have the answer for your purpose in life, it slips away from your hand and that ring of paranoia cease to restraint the chokings on your neck....
There is no purpose, life so far, is how it will always be and always has been for me, Shityy....