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I breathe in, taking in this momment i have once forgotten. The desprete voice that whispers in my ear longs for an answer to the undergoing truth tha seeps into the vast abyss that is Salvador. What is it that i want? is it anythng at all? One things for sure; i dont want to grow up.

Heyyy, whoever is reading this. Yea that was a littl deep huh? well i for one i got into a new show: Dexter. Let me tell you, that show is AMAZING! it inspired me, woke me up to some thing. Yea i know, a show that reveals somthing about yourslef? well i guess i don't have much of anything else.
Today i confronted th aweful truth. I am growing up, change is on its way, and to be perfecty honest, im terrifed... I always look to th world and thought: "Look, so many possibilities." but now, i have to face that i dont have that anymore and things are just happening to fast for me.
The fact remains that i have been talking to a collage and might actually go to it. It is the art institute, but really i dont know if this is the right choice for me or if im just to scared to see whats good for me. Its true that i love art, but i also love writing and i wanted to ge into the collage because if i do go into animation i will be able to possible combined my two passions, or maybe just make someone elses vison come to life. Im not too sure but this is somthing that i might like to persue its just.... well the idea of going out into he world, changing my life around, and going into the unknown is overwhelming! so i dont know what im going to do.
anyways, i know this is deep and full of meaning but really no one reads my diary much so i dont care. i will use this as i real journal when i chose to! :p because i want to remmber this momment. Im scared, deprssed, angry, excited, inspired, egar, so many things and i cat remember the last time i was like this. And one thing i learned from Dexter is that you must accept who you are. With this i have an idea for a novel xD. it will be Dexter based but hopefully not a copy, so if it goes thorugh like so little of ideas do then i guess ill tell you (journal) all about how my porgress is going.

If you have never see Dexter i am telling right now to get up and watch it!! you can find it on netflix or on showtime which i do nothave the money to buy D:. but yea, i guess thats it for now.