I mean seriously? I'm tired of looking my friends in the face and lying to them apparently for no reason. Why don't I *trust* anymore? I mean they haven't betrayed me, if anything I'm surprised they keep reaccepting me with open arms because I have been freezing them out of anything that has any emotional context. Not calling back, ignoring texts, lying to get out of being together... these are life-long genuine friends not associates. The type of people who've held my hair back a** I was sick, gone out of their way to defend me, and atlk to me regardless of my eccentricties. I don't know what's wrong with me. For some reason unknown to even myself I won't let them in. Why have I socially and emotionally disconnected from all these great people? Is this because of my dad, or am I at heart a deep-seatedly cold person who cares for noone? Honestly, I don't know. How do I fix this?
 Amara Tempest_Noir · Thu Feb 17, 2011 @ 04:37pm · 0 Comments |
