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I'm feeling like a piece of crap right now. I'm being ignored. Being yelled at. Being a loser. I don't know what to do...just end it right here ? People don't understand the pain i'm going through. He doesn't want to talk to me......why can't you be like her...? Why can't be SOMETHING. I'm a piece of s**t. Try to change my mind ? Won't happen anytime soon. I don't want to be made fun of, I want to love someone and maybe they might love me back.

Say what you want ? Like,ooh that girl is sooooo ugly. Fer some people it's nothing, to me it giantic. I have always thought of myself like that. I "over react" to almost anything. Im a softie and my feelings DO get hurt easily. I have had a lot of bullies in my past and all they did was bring me down. Im trying to bring myself back up to where i used to be. I hate those movies where in the end everythings all "happy" and everything turns out as it's suppost to be. I wish my life was like that. I wish that I wasn't even here in the first place. I always got them "fake smiles" and my true smile comes out when my true friends are there. Inside theres this deep dark cloud where a storm is never ending.


I don't know how to say goodbye so,
Goodbye,
-MckayLa