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PROFILES
Name: Luka Valentine
Age: 16
What I am: The fan
Name:Johnny Dashwood
Age:19
What I am: The Star
~~~It Starts Now!~~~
Walking down the hall of the stadium, Luka could hear the taps from the heels of the lady in front of him. He was walking back stage of the concert of his favorite band. He felt his heart race the closer they got to the dressing room of the singer Johnny Dashwood. He didn't think he'd win. he wasn't expecting to win. He brushed out a wrinkle on his dress before he sighed. Yes he wore dresses. why? he just liked them. It wasn't a big deal. he liked the shocked faces people got when they found out he was a boy and not a girl.
When they got to the door he stopped and watched the woman knock on the door. he then heard the others voice. He blinked feeling so nervous. the woman told him to wait and she went in to tell him the contest winner was here. She then walked out to let Luka know he could go in. He nodded politely and took a deep breath before walking in. He saw The other man and he bit his lip and fiddled with the end of his dress, "hello. I'm Luka. It's a pleasure to meet you" he said nervously. He was still chewing on his lip as he rocked on his feet. He wondered what the other would think of him. Should he have dressed different? Oh he was scared but he didn't let it show.
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Johnny sat in his room, cracking his neck as he let out a soft moan feeling the tension release, running his fingers through his black hair, his dark green eyes looking at himself as he gazed at the mirror. It wasn’t the show yet, and whoever the contest winner was would be on the stage as Johnny sang a song to whoever won. This whole thing was actually his bands idea, which he thought was fine, a girl would most likely win and he could handle that. However once the woman came in speaking that the winner was here, Johnny turned and stood up. Watching as a blond haired female walked in, wearing a purple dress that he actually liked. He watched as the girl bit her bottom lip, he raised his eyebrow, she was nervous. Now of course being a male himself, Johnny looked at the woman in front of him, she was beautiful, he took her hand, kissing the back of it as his dark green eyes looked at her, ”Hello Miss Luka, my name is Johnny Dashwood. This is my drummer, Neil Casbe, a.k.a. Nail.”
His slender finger pointed towards a blond man with brown eyes, he nodded his head up, showing that he saw her, he too was looking at her, and they all thought Luka was a girl. ”Then you have my base, Zack Johnson, a,k,a Zack Attack.” Now this man had red hair, with green eyes that were light and he too nodded at Luka with a smile. Johnny moved standing tall, letting her hand go softly as he continued to point, ”Then you have my guitarist Sean Waters, a.k.a slim.” Johnny looked at Waters, who had black hair like Johnny and was very thin, Johnny looked at her and smiled, ”You can call me John.” He said before looking at all of his friends, that moved up and circled around her, ”So you will be on the side of the stage when we preform, all of the songs I may add, so get use to the light. At the end of the concert, I will finish by singing I song I made just for winner. So it will be you’re song, Luka.” He added, before letting out a sigh and pulling out his phone looking at the time.
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Luka blushed when his hand was kissed and wanted to laugh at being called miss. but he bit his tongue and nodded at all the members as they were introduced. He was in heaven. this band was awesome. their music was just wow. he drove his parents nuts with him playing their songs so much. He listened to him explain what they were doing and he nodded. though hearing your song he blushed and smiled. oh wow. Though he knew he should clear up the confusion. He bit his lip again growing nervous, "it's an honor to meet you all. You have no idea. I mean I listen to your CDs so much my parents tell me to cut it out" he said said chuckling lightly. Though he then wondered how should be brake this to them.
Taken a deep breath he bit his lip and frowned, "though.. I should let you know. I'm a boy.... I just dress in girls clothes... I don't know why. I just find them more comfortable then men's" He said blushing and rocking more on his feet. He looked down his bangs that were out of his pony tail hung over his head. were here it came moment of truth the shock. though this time he wasn't looking forward to it. This was his favorite band and what if they thought of him as a freak? or a weirdo? oh god he grew so nervous and he wanted to run. He wouldn't let his emotions get the better of him. He was 16 and in fact a boy. then again he always been sensitive but he blamed it on two sisters. He took a look threw his bangs and bit his lip, "if you ahhh change your mind on me I understand.. I could just go..." he said since the silence was making him more nervous.
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Johnny watched as she blushed, he couldn’t help but smile, and as the guys looked at her she began to speak, talking about how much of an honor it was. They all laughed, shaking their head and splitting apart again. Just then girls came into the room; there was Chelsea, who was married to Neil. She had blond hair as well, that was waving and long, with green eyes as she went to him and hugged him close, laughing about what had just happened to all the girls. Then there was a burette hair woman, whose hair went to her shoulder, she went to Zack punching him in the shoulder playfully and getting swung in the air as she tried to fight him off laughing. ”Oh, by the way, most of my members are um married…” He said running a hand through his hair and letting out his own nervous laugh. He was the only one who wasn’t, and honestly no girlfriends he had stuck. But Neil and Zack were the only ones married, Sean simply had a girlfriend, who walked in, nervous as ever playing with her fingers. She had black hair with bright blue underneath it, her blue eyes looked up to him. ”Well, Chelsea is married to Neil, Faith is married to Zack, and that beauty there, the one scared to death, is Lissa. I however, despite what they say, is single.”
Then he told Johnny he was a boy, he froze, he just kissed the hand of a boy, but even worse, a boy was in a dress, even worse, the boy won. He was singing a song a love song to a boy. He could only stare at Luka, as Zack went to him and bumped him, Johnny shook his head, watching as he bit his lip and then he started talking about changing his mind. Johnny put his finger up, ”Stay, hold on.” All the guys like they just knew went into the far back room, the door closed. And all that Luka, and the girls heard was a bunch of thudding, and then Zack screaming the word f**k. The door opened, Zack was laughing as he walked out, he had a little limp but he was still laughing because he couldn’t help but do it. Neil was rubbing his stomach, rolling his eyes and pointing to his wife like it was her fault. Then Sean came out, rubbing the back of his head, grinning from ear to ear as he received another slap on the back of the head as Johnny passed. Sean knew something that the others didn’t, Johnny had admitted once that he had looked at men, and now it would only seem that fate was hunting him. He knew he was cursed.
Johnny looked at Luka, he put a smile on his face but it wasn’t as much of a smile as before, now that he thought Luka was sent to this Earth to ruin his life. ”Come on.” he said moving out of the dressing room and back stage, he was taken by a bunch of people hooking him up, he pulled Luka close to him, making sure they didn’t push him away, or through the kid out. ”Alright, back off, I’m pretty sure I’m fine damnit.” He moved to the stage, Johnny winced, this was it, he moved out stage, taking Luka’s hand as he pulled her gentle with him, ”This is our Contest Winner Luka! Everyone give a big hand for him!” No one paused for a heartbeat, they all cheered and clapped, Johnny pointed to the seat that was by the stage, ”The best seat in the house.” The other guys came out on stage with them, the crowd going wild as they went to their sections getting everything ready.
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Luka watched them leave to the back room and he looked down again. maybe he should just sneak out and run? but before he could they came back out and he fiddled with his dress. maybe he should have given this to his sister the more he thought about it. When Johnny told him to come and gave a smile he blinked. He could tell the difference in them and it made his decision to run more clear. Though he couldn't since everyone was rushing out around him and he just fallowed, but he stayed quite. He watched all of the hype go on around him and when Johnny pulled him close he blinked some and raised his eyebrow. And when his hand was taken he just watched and let him lead him on sage. he suddenly grew really nervous. he waved nervously to the crowd and then took his seat. so many people watching so many people. it was the reason he never sang any of his songs. he had massive stage fright. His heart raced as he tried to stay calm. oh boy.
As the concert went on he grew use to the stage and he actually enjoyed it. the songs were amazing as always and he forgot about all the weirdness in the beginning. Though it returned when Johnny had to sing to him. When Johnny walked to him he bit his lip and slipped off his chair. He looked at him and he shook his head, "I... I... I... I got to go" with that he ran off the stage and to the back. He hid in one of the bathrooms. He couldn't do it. He wasn't going to allow a straight guy sing to him. nope not going to go there. on top of that it meant he'd be in the middle of the stage all eyes on him. he even saw some of the girls from school in the crowd and that would make it that much worse. Then we go back to the stage fright! so he was going to stay here till they realized he wasn't coming out and end the concert. No song for him. Plus after what happened in the dressing room he just wanted to run. it was clear he was trying to be nice. though it seemed easier when he thought he was a boy.
When he heard them end it he snuck out of the bathroom and tried to make it to the back exit so he could go home. or maybe he'll just tell Johnny he'll let his sister have the rest of his win. he was almost home. he was almost free. What stopped him? He tripped on a cord and smacked his head on one of the spare amps. He laid on the floor holding his head and closed his eyes. oh god that really hurt. He heard the band coming back and tried to sit up only to feel sick and lay back down. great he hit his head way harder then the thought he did. well today just gets better and better.
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Johnny went through everything, and when the end of the concert came, he moved to Luka, a smile on his face, it was a real smile, the rush of the show always made him happy. But when he saw him he ran off the stage, Johnny’s eyes flashed. That kid did not just leave him in the middle of the stage looking like an a**. Johnny looked out, ”Stage fright gets the best of us. Thank you all for coming! You’ll hear the new song, I promise you.” Then the curtains closed and he grabbed a water bottle cracking his neck. He was going to find the punk and beat him up, even if he was wearing a dress. As he grabbed a towel the guys waved good-bye, they were going out with their girls and Johnny was fine with that. He moved backstage, to see Luka lying on the ground, he already could tell what had happened. Johnny moved over to him, looking at him before he started to laugh. He had to bend down, his stomach hurting from how much he was laughing, it took him several minutes to finally stop as he looked at him, ”I was going to beat you up for ditching me in the middle of the stage, but it seems my equipment did that for me.”
Johnny sighed, moving to him and picking him up, Johnny took Luka to the dressing room, laying him on the couch softly as he looked at him, ”I’m going to guess you left because you didn’t want me to sing to you?” He asked, sitting up and grabbing a cloth, pouring some water on it Johnny started to tap it on his head gently, looking at him with soft and kind eyes, though he was still trying not to laugh at him. ”I’m sorry, I know I didn’t handle you being a boy very well. It was nothing you did.” He said, ”Sorry for laughing, I don’t take rejection well, whether it’s from a girl or a boy.” Johnny stood up, losing the tie he was wearing and throwing it to the mirror stand he had, ”So you were promised a song, and just because you run off stage does not mean you’re not going to get one.” Grabbing the acoustic guitar he sat down in front of him, knowing that Luka couldn’t run away from him now, he would have to sit and listen to the song. It was upbeat, his fingers moving along the cords as he moved his head softly with the flow of things.
”There’s a lot of things that I don’t know,
Maybe that’s why they call if live and learn,
All I know is that things happen for a reason-“ It paused letting it build up a little,
”Luka, standing in my way,
here you are again today,
acting like you don’t care.
Luka wins the fighting punch,
I’m just falling for it one by one,
you’ve become, the light of my world.
Don’t leave me alone tonight, give me your hand,
let me take you away.
I know that I’m not perfect,
but I’ll be there for you,
till the day that you think you don’t need me now.” he continued to stream away, looking at him, his jaw tightened, he still couldn’t believe that he was singing to a guy, and even more, he didn’t care. Well he did, but not as much as he thought,
”there’s a lot of things that I don’t know,
there’s a lot of things you could show me.
You brighten up the room, just smiling like you do;
I’m ready to be inspired every day.
Luka here’s my final pitch, I
think it would just be great,
if you stay with me tonight.”
Johnny sighed setting the guitar down and looking at him, ”How do you like your song? By the way, you don’t get to give your prize away, it’s yours. So, once you’re able to walk, we’re going to my hotel, watching movies, ordering room service. Hopefully you’ll get hurt a few more times so I could get a good laugh and tomorrow we will go anywhere you want to.”
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Luka heard him laugh and closed his eyes. yep this could get worse. Though when He was picked up he just let him and kept his eyes closed. When he was laying on the couch he moaned, "ow..." He heard what Johnny said and opened his eyes. He could feel the cool cloth on his head and looked at him, "i wasn't ditching you. I have stage fright." that and other things but he wasn't going to mention those. He sighed and closed his eyes again. the pain was going away so that was a plus. He sighed some and tried to relax so he can walk.
Though he heard him say he was still getting a song and looked at him confused. he was? But why? wasn't the guy straight? But he nodded wondering about the song. He watched him play and then he heard it. He blushed some as he listened and smiled softly. it was sweet and he liked it. He closed his eyes and listened. he wanted to hum along but he was nervous to. When the song was over he smiled and looked at him, "I like it. It's sweet. thank you" He told him. When the pain went away in his head, he sat up and groaned. He rubbed his head before looking at him. So he couldn't give away his prize? not even to family? oh. But that didn't seem so bad. He smiled some and nodded, "sounds good. When do we head out?" he asked. He was feeling better and he was started to enjoy himself again.
He stood up and fixed his dress before rocking on his feet some, "so what movie do you want to watch? I was thinking nightmare on elm street" he said. He was in the mood for a horror movie. He either wanted nightmare on elm street or he wanted the movie IT or not horror Queen of the Damned. He rocked on his feet and held his hands behind his back. He wondered if he should have just sucked it up and wore males clothes. well it was to late now. oh god school Monday was going to suck. He wasn't going to hear the end of this. So many people. his friends would be sportive but the snots he saw int he crowd would never let him live this down. Maybe he could just pretend to be sick? he'll figure it out later.
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Johnny figured it was something like that, but he knew that it wasn’t all, Johnny was famous he wasn’t stupid though. But once he sung his song, he seemed that Luka was fine again, he was back to his normal blushing self, and Johnny was relieved, he didn’t have to explain how the winner died. That might be bad. ”I have my moments, and you’re welcome.” He said watching as Luka sat up rubbing his head, Johnny would wait a little bit longer, clearer that everything was to Luka the better, once he started to smile more and actually got up Johnny figured it was ready. Standing up as well, he shrugged his shoulders, ”Alright, we can pick it up on the way, I’ll make it quick.” Johnny grabbed a helmet and handed it to Luka, ”You’re going to need it more than me.” Johnny had a motorcycle, and that was what he drove here, the limo thing got a little old.
As they moved to the bike, Johnny shot up, moving through cars and watching as they flew by green lights before they could turn yellow. Besides when he had to turn, going to a movie place and going in real quick to grab the money and pay and get out. He was back with Luka in a second, not wanting to leave him alone, having some jerk try to get him would not be a good thing. They were gone again, moving through traffic as they came to the large hotel, he pulled up, looking at the guys, ”Park it for us please.” Johnny, took off the helmet looking at him, he chuckled rolling his eyes and going inside assuming he would follow after. The guy at the front desk nodded his head, treating him like a normal person, soon enough they were in his room, which the elevator which too and he had a suite so once he opened the doors a great view showed and Johnny sighed, dropping everything on the counter, ”alright, make yourself at home.” Johnny put his shoes by the counter and moved towards the bed, ”I’m going to change, I hope you don’t mind.”
Johnny moved into the bathroom, and then came out seconds later with black pj bottoms on that had white skulls on them. Johnny wasn’t wearing a shirt though; he ran his hand through his hair as he went to his large TV and turned it on along with the DVD player. Getting the popcorn ready as the previews went on he smiled at luka, ”Do you want anything to drink?”
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Luka had taken the helmet and blinked some, "ok?" he then fallowed him out and saw the bike. oh nice he always wanted one himself. He got on and held on as the sped down the road to the movie store. once they got there he sat and waited. he looked around not really phased being out here alone. but soon he was back and they were off again. Soon they got to the hotel and he got off and let Johnny take off the helmet and blinked some. he then checked his hair. though this made johnny to chuckle and roll his eyes. He blushed and fallowed him in and up to the room. he was still fiddling with his dress. he shouldn't since it would make it wrinkle.
When he saw the room his eyes went wide. wow this was so amazing. yep! if he wasn't so scared of being on stage he'd give being a star a try. He looked at Johnny and blinked some, "oh thank you. and I don't mind" He took off his boots; which in it's self was a pain, and put them by the door like he does at his place. It was a habit his mother drilled into him. he then walked around and looked at everything. When Johnny came out he looked at him and blushed some. shirtless and hung low PJs. yep keep his mind under control. lets not make this award again. He was just starting to have fun and enjoy hanging with Johnny. he didn't seem like a bad guy. He watched him set up the Tv and the DVD player and smiled.
When Johnny started to get the popcorn and the drinks, Luka realized something. he didn't bring clothes. He heard Johnny's question and smiled, "water or mountain dew?" he asked. he was addicted to that soda. if it wasn't water he was drinking then it was mountain dew. He then rocked on his feet again, "ahhh I wasn't given all of the details to the prize of the contest and I didn't know I was staying over. So i forgot to bring clothes. May I borrow something? I promise to wash it after." he told him. he was use to borrowing his friends clothes and washing them before he returned them. it was a habit of his. plus it was polite to do that. He sat on the bed and put his hands on his lap. He could smell the popcorn and he smiled. though when he saw the main menu of the movie and gulped. this wasn't nightmare on elm street. this was saw 4. oh s**t. he could handle this he could handle this. it was just a movie. it was just a movie.
When Johnny gave him one of his band shirts, Luka smile and took it, "thank you. I'll be right back" He then slid off the bed and headed to the bathroom to change. He took a while since getting out of his dress was a pain. He took off all his accessories and put them in his bag. though he must have forgotten his choker since it slid under Johnny's pants. When he was done, he walked out in just the s**t and panties; yes he wore panties too. he blushed some and smiled, "it's still big but it's comfy" he said. he sat on the bed and smiled some, "so is the popcorn and drinks ready?" he asked. he was trying to get him self ready to watch the one movie that scared him to death. he kept reminding himself it was just a movie. oh he was not sleeping tonight.
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Johnny, had seen Luka blush at the fact he wasn’t wearing a shirt, and he ignored it for the most part, not wanting to go back down the road of being creped out. He let out a yawn, moving his elbow to catch it, as his fingers ran through his hair again. His eyes studied Luka for a bit, he was cute, Johnny shook his head that was a something he would not allow himself to think. He asked for water or mountain dew, Johnny opened the fridge pulling out a can of mountain dew, then another, one for Luka and one for Johnny. Then his eyes slide back to Luka knowing the moment he rocked on his feet he was nervous and about to say something. ’Why am I paying attention enough that I notice that?’ The thought caused him to stop for a minute, having to shake his head and smile, ”Sorry should have told you before we came here, and don’t worry about it, you don’t have to clean them.”
Johnny moved away getting a band T-shirt and handing to him, as he went and changed Johnny went to the kitchen and put the popcorn in a bowl. As he was moving out of the kitchen, Luka came out. He stopped staring at him for a minute, he looked cute like that, Johnny liked seeing him in it. But with another shake of his head he ignored it, ’Okay, stay focused, focused.’ Looking at the movie he frowned, ”Sorry, she gave me the wrong movie…” He said getting on the bed and getting under the covers, ”It can get a bit cold, so join me under the covers if you would like.” He said before handing Luka the mountain Dew, he clapped, all the lights in his room turning off as he settled into his bed. He took a bite of popcorn as he pushed play. He had never seen this movie and wondered if it was good.
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Luka smiled and nodded, "alright" he said and slid under the covers with him. he took the soda and opened it, "thank you" he told him. when he heard that there was a mix up he shook his head, "it's alright. I'm sure this will be fine" oh he hoped. When all the lights were off he hid the gulp and reminded him self it was only a movie. He nibbled on some popcorn and he watched the movie. all seemed to start out calm. maybe he could handle this. Though the more they watched the movie the more nervous he got. he moved the covers closer and closer to his face as he watched. oh something was coming something was coming. oh god, oh god. He knew it he knew it.
He then saw a girl with long hair the bottom of the braid tied to a pole. her head was made sure it was still. She looked scared. oh here it came. Luka watched as the pole turned making the braid wrap around it. as it did it pulled on her scalp. he started to shake and tear up. he saw her horrid face. he then watched as her hair and sin started to rip off showing the skull under. he then let out a scream as tears feel down his face. he hid under the covers and was shaking and curled into a ball. he was crying now. he could hear her screams and when the screams stopped he didn't know if she lived or died. though the more he listened he heard she lived and had gotten out before it finished the job. he sniffled and tried to calm down. oh god he must have seemed like a baby. he could handle some horror films but not ones that could happen. some nut case could see these and want to try them.
After he calmed down Luka reappeared from the covers and wiped his eyes. Sniffling some he bit his lip and blinked, "sorry..." he took a sip of his drink again trying to control his shaking. though all was calm in the movie again and he relaxed more. it was just a movie. it was just a movie. It was just a movie. another scary scene happened and this time instead of diving under he moved closer to Johnny and clung to him as he hid his head in his arms. tears reformed and he was crying again. Ok this movie was way to much for him. the trips were freaky and they were horrifying. he didn't even want to picture anything about this movie. he didn't think he could handle watching the rest of it with out crying his eyes out with every death.
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Johnny smiled and nodded, turning to watch the movie, he ate his popcorn in silence, watching at some of the things and making faces. Though he did notice Luka pulling the sheets closer and closer to his face, then as the girl appeared Johnny tilted his head lightly. Looking at the way she was, caused his fingers to move to his head, ”Ow…” He mumbled to himself, as the pole started to wrap the hair and pull off her skin, he ran his fingers through his hair, wincing slightly at how horrible it looked, then she got away so it was all good, though he swore he had a headache now just watching it. However to the left of him, Luka was under the covers crying, he blinked, holding back another laugh, ”Luka.” He said his name gently, watching as he came from underneath the sheets saying sorry. Johnny shook his head, as the younger man sniffled, ”It’s pretty gruesome so don’t worry about it.”
Then as they continued to watch it, and Johnny entranced in the movie leaned forward a bit it looked wicked. He winced away, making another face before he felt something clinging to him. He looked down, blinking at the little form that was on him. Not sure how to handle this, he didn’t want to push him away, he was afraid, he mentally let out a long sigh as his arms wrapped around Luka. His left hand, the one had had be clinging to, wrapped around his waist pulling him closer, as the right arm wrapped around the front of his waist so he felt safe. He watched him hide his face, as he cried again and wondered if he should turn off the movie. He would wait a little bit longer, see if Luka got better. They were so close, that Johnny could feel the younger ones form pushed against his chest, and his body heat was pushing to Luka. He took his fingers, wiping away the tears in his eyes.
Then he turned back to the movie, ’Why did I do that?’ Johnny couldn’t help but wonder what was happening to him. But he wouldn’t think too much of it now. His green eyes moved back to the movie, as he kept his arms around Luka hoping maybe it would help him a little bit.
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Luka felt Johnny move the arm he was clinging to and before he could say anything he felt the older man pull him closer. he blushed some and smiled softly. When he felt the other arm wrap around him as well. He subconsciously moved closer to him and snuggled into him. He looked at him and then he felt him wipe his tears away. Blushing a bit more, he smiled some and relaxed. he looked back to the movie to it it all again calmed down in the movie... for now. but he continued to watch the movie and every time it showed someone dieing he'd hide his head in Johnny's chest and whimpered. He was shaking again but once it was over he relaxed again and kept watching the movie. This was how it went for the rest of said movie.
When it was over Luka reluctantly moved away from Johnny still shaking some as he blinked, "well... ahhh... that w-w-was interesting..." If he ever saw that movie again he'd shoot someone. he seem the first three and thanks to friends making him laugh and see how stupid they were he didn't mind them. But no matter how hard they tired with this movie same reaction every time. he even screamed and cried at the saw 5 trailer on TV. So yeah no more saw movies for him. He wasn't going to see the last ones oh hell no. He gulped some and rubbed his arm some. he yawned but he knew he wouldn't be able to sleep after that. but he'd give it a try. Maybe with someone next to him would help him sleep. Since he normally went to his brother to sleep with after a movie that freaked him out.
Soon it was in fact bedtime. He laid down and bit his lip snuggling close to Johnny since he was still a bit scared. He could feel Johnny's arms around him again and he relaxed. He then closed his eyes to try and sleep. As the night went on though he found he was just laying there. He looked up at Johnny to see him asleep and he figured maybe he'd sit on the balcony outside for a bit till he grew tired. With this he carefully slipped out of Johnny's arms and off the bed careful not to wake him. He then moved to outside. As he did he noticed a guitar and smiled some. he gently took it before walking out side closing the door but he didn't all the way. He then sat down and strummed some random strings. He let a soft smile show on his face. He looked at the sky and saw some stars.
With this He started to play one of his songs that he wrote. he then started to sing as he played
"Do you ever feel like a plastic bag
Drifting through the wind
Wanting to start again
Do you ever feel, feel so paper thin
Like a house of cards
One blow from caving in
Do you ever feel already buried deep
Six feet under scream
But no one seems to hear a thing
Do you know that there's still a chance for you
Cause there's a spark in you
You just gotta ignite, the light
And let it shine
Just own the night
Like the fourth of July"
He continued to play putting his heart and soul into it like he always did. he tapped his foot to keep the beat and started to move to the music. he had a smile on his face.
"Cause baby you're a firework
Come on show 'em what your worth
Make'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
As you shoot across the sky-y-y
Baby you're a firework
Come on let your colors burst
Make 'em go "Oh, Oh, Oh"
You're gonna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own"
The more he got into it he stood up and continued to play and sing. He danced around the balcony The more he sung the more he relaxed and the calmer he got. he had his eyes closed letting his song and it's meaning take over. he was now having fun now and he didn't notice anything around him as he continued to sing.
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Johnny couldn’t help but to watch the young boy blush and get comfy in his arms. Johnny smiled lightly as he hid in his chest, or began to shake his arms would pull him closer in order to keep him safe. They were so close it was a big shock for Johnny to realize he didn’t really care all the way. Soon enough though the movie was over, and Johnny looked down to Luka as he spoke. A small chuckle slipped his lips as he rolled his eyes, ”Interesting is an understatement.” Johnny stated as he watched the younger boy yawn. Johnny wasn’t to sure if he would ever watch the movie again, but he sure did find it odd. Turning off the TV and the DVD player he clapped turning on the lights so he could see where he was going. He placed the drinks and popcorn that was gone onto the night stand and turned to see the boy snuggling up to him more. With another clap the lights went back off.
Johnny laid down, his arms still wrapped strongly around Luka, a grip that he had done to many girlfriends, normally once his arms was around the person, he wasn’t going to let go. But once he fell asleep, pulling Luka to his chest as he instinctively wanted to protect him, Johnny had fallen asleep easily. No matter the movie, he had learned when he was a kid, that he could defeat his nightmares, he use to have them all the time, wondering and worrying. Falling, being eaten, taken and beaten, but one night he raced through everything, as if he was fast forwarding a movie, and going to the movie after that. Even in his nightmare he found himself saying no and growing large because it was his dream, he had the power, and would not give his demons the power over him anymore. But once Luka moved, he awoke, though he stayed perfectly still, acting as if she was still asleep as he felt the body that was once next to him an empty space. Boy if only that was the first time that had ever happened to him.
As he heard the outside door open, his green eyes opened as well, moving out of the bed slowly, running his fingers through his hair as he leaned against the wall. Looking outside to Luka making sure not to be seen, he was holding a guitar and just looking at the stars. It caused Johnny to tilt his head, curious as to what he would do, and soon enough he began to play, a smile coming to his face as he heard the song, he listened, feeling the words wrap around him, it was true and it was a feeling that everyone got once in a while. An inspiring song indeed, but Johnny didn’t go out yet, he was smarter than that. The emotion that he had in his voice, showed that this wasn’t just any song it was one that he felt in his bones, in his heart, all the way through. Then he continued to play, singing with everything he had, and it caused Johnny’s heart to skip a beat, he was pretty sure it was just because the song was good. Soon enough, Luka was standing and playing and singing that made Johnny’s smile come to his lips even wider. He slipped out onto the balcony, leaning against the wall as he stared at him. Tilting his head lightly, his fingers running through his hair as he looked on.
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Luka was so into his song and singing he didn't hear the door open. He just kept dancing and singing putting his feelings into it. When he was over he looked to the stars and smiled. he then turned around and jumped a mile high seeing Johnny leaning against the wall. he blushed bright red and he bit his lip. He as always rocked on his feet and looked down, "s-s-sorry if I woke you. I just thought I'd try and relax my self enough to go to sleep." He said. He took off the strap from around him and then held the interment lightly beside him. He never let anyone hear his songs. not even his siblings. He wondered what Johnny would think of it? would he find it weird? moment of truth.
He yawned again as he sat back down on the chair. Luka looked at the sky again and blushed, "i don't normally let anyone hear my songs. My friends always try to hear them but, I'm always scared someone would hate it. or say I have no talent." he said biting his lip. he then smiled some and looked at him, "looks like your the first to hear one" he said rubbed the back of his neck under his long hair. he wiggled and fiddled with the end of the shirt. he looked at Johnny and blushed, "so what do you think?" he asked he honestly wondered what Johnny thought of it. though he was smiling. did that mean he liked it? it gave him hope.
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Johnny watched his eyes soft as he spun around until the other boy’s eyes rested on him. Suddenly he was back in that shell, rocking on his feet and looking away like he had done something wrong. Johnny frowned, moving closer to him, as he took the strap from his body and set it aside him. He tilted his head slightly, ”You singing didn’t wake me up, when you left…the emptiness woke me up.” It was true, if he fell asleep alone it was one thing, he was used to it, expected it. But if he was sleeping with someone, them leaving it caused him to miss something, the closeness, the other body. Johnny was sure that it was stupid, but it was something that he couldn’t help.
As the younger one yawned and sat down on the chair, Johnny watched, as he looked to the stars and blushed, it was cute how he didn’t show anyone. It was as if he didn’t see how truly amazing they were, Johnny didn’t say anything yet, he was going to wait until Luka got it all out, and as he bit his lip and looked at Johnny, the older man still waited, he smiled at the end and pulled Luka to him. His arms wrapping around him and hugging him, ”You’re a dork, and a loser.” Johnny said as he pulled away and smiled, ”For not knowing how amazing that was, that song was inspiration, it made me feel better when nothing was even wrong. Many people could connect to that, and you have talent.”
Johnny stepped back, the hug was because the song was amazing, but after that he didn’t really want to keep touching him, because he was finding it harder and harder, to find reasons not to touch him all the time. Johnny looked to the sky, ”It was amazing.” he stated, his green eyes falling back to Luka, ”I have a feeling you have been through a lot, and if you have the courage and strength to not care what people think of you in a dress, showing people that song and who you really are shouldn’t be too hard. There will be haters no matter what, but the people who will love it, they are more important.” Johnny yawned and rubbed his eyes, ”come back to bed with me?” He asked, not realizing how much of a couple he just sounded like that. Johnny silently winced, kicking himself in the butt.
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Luka blinked confused when he was pulled into the older male and when he hugged him he blushed softly. Though he looked confused hearing he was a dork and a loser. well that's not something you want to hear. he frowned but continued to listen. He then blushed and smiled at what he said. He thought it was amazing? he felt like doing a cartwheel he was so happy. He bit his lip smiling and looked at him, "thank you" he told him. he could still feel johnny's arms around him and the more he thought about it, the more he realized that he liked it. It felt nice. and something he never felt before.
When johnny pulled away though, Luka hid his blush and looked at the sky as well. before he also looked at Johnny. He smiled his eyes lighting up. He was right. he must have knew that from personal experience. There were people out there who didn't like his music. but there were a ton who did. And if Johnny gave up just for one person telling him you suck. then so many people would be unhappy. It made him wonder if he should let people hear it. It really boosted his confidence hearing a great singer say his song was amazing. when johnny's music was even better. the cartwheel feeling returned but he held back.
When he watched Johnny yawn and rub his eyes. he then remembered johnny had mentioned how what woke him up was him leaving. He then heard him ask him to come back to bad. It took all his energy not to blush. He nodded and walked up to the older man and kissed his cheek. he then blushed and bit his lip, "i'm sorry... I just wanted to thank you for making me see that I shouldn't be scared of people hearing my music. I mean if you can do it and not let anyone affect you. then why can't I?" he asked smiling more. He then bit his lip again and walked past him and back into the room. he climbed into bed and snuggled in wondering if after the kiss would change anything? it was just something he did with his friends straight and gay alike. So he didn't see a problem.
But he didn't know if johnny would. he didn't seen like he minded. he was so nice. a little rough on the edges but soft in the inside. Luka felt safe with him the only other person he felt safe with was his brother. it was nice to know what that felt like with someone else. But he didn't think he had a shot with him. They were in way to different worlds. also the age was a problem. and in this place there was a law about this stuff. so no he didn't think it would ever work. plus he was pretty sure Johnny was straight and maybe just open minded about some stuff. But the fact he got to see this and get to know him was one of the best things to happen. Though the next question was what the hell to do tomorrow?
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Johnny couldn’t help but stare at his smile and blush, even him biting his bottom lip, made Johnny watch and pick up on what he did. Johnny looked on, watching as his face lit up to what he had said. It caused him to look away, seeing him so happy was affecting him. He was perfectly fine, he wasn’t going to get mad at himself, but suddenly Luka kissed his cheek. He froze, looking down at him, ”It’s my pleasure…you can do anything you want… I’ll be in soon…” Johnny waited until Luka was in the bed. Johnny moved to the balcony grabbing the railing and glaring out to the city. ’What the hell is wrong with you! Snap out of you! You’re not gay, you don’t like him, his just a kid! Just. A. Kid. He means nothing more to you then a friend.’
Johnny moved his hands in fist as his body began to shake, he didn’t know how he was going to get rid of this rage how he would be able to do so without Luka knowing right away. He moved further down the balcony and swung a bunch into the wall. Johnny groaned in pain, his trembling was still there, but the rage had left, his knuckles bleeding and a dent in the wall, it wasn’t brick but it was hard. Johnny backed away, his shaking hand looking bad as he bit his bottom lip, ’Go in there, clean up, go to bed. Easy.’ Johnny walked into the hotel room, shutting the door and walking into the bathroom shutting the door as quiet as an angry person could. His hand shaking as the hot water touched it causing him to wince so he didn’t make any noises. He cleaned it off, pulling pieces of the wall out of his skin and putting soap on it.
Drying it off softly, he pulled out bandages, wrapping it in surgical tape he looked at himself in the mirror, he couldn’t stand looking at himself, he shut off the light moving towards the bed and climbing in quietly. He wrapped his arms around Luka, his muscles tensing up as he pulled him close to his body. He closed his eyes falling asleep to only a bunch of thoughts in his head, ’You’re gay, you will never be looked at again, there goes your fame. You’re a fake, your parents will never love you again. You failed…’
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Luka watched him go to the bathroom and blinked softly. He noticed something but he shrugged it off for now. Was he ok? When Johnny came back and climbed into bed, he snuggled into the covers and when he felt the others arms around him again he snuggled into him laying his head on his chest. He could hear his heart racing fast. was he ok? but as he noticed Johnny falling asleep his heart race relaxed and it was calming. He closed his eyes and soon drifted off as well.
The next morning Luka woke up early and smiled. he saw Johnny still sleeping and snuck out again moving the pillow in his place. he hopped it worked. he then went to the small kitchen area and looked threw it. he wanted to do something nice for him. he was being so nice to him. it was the least he could do. Wait didn't the hotel do free breakfast. and thanks to his sister he knew Johnny's favorite. he wrote a note saying where he went and then headed to go get them breakfast. he would have made it but their was only snacks in the kitchen. he hummed some and forgot all he was in was a shirt. lucky it went down to his knees but still.
When he finished grabbing two plates he carefully carried the plates back up and into the elevator. when he was back he listened and heard johnny still asleep. he smiled and put the plates on a try and then got some juice from the small fridge and got two glasses. he filled both and then set them on a tray with the plates. With that done he went into his bag and pulled out his journal he always carried around. he pulled out a couple pieces of paper out of it. he then made a rose out of them and then placed it on the tray. with this done he walked to the bed and put the tray on the nightstand. he shook johnny and smiled, "breakfast is ready" he told him blushing as he did.
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Johnny held the pillow to him, his body tensing a little before relaxing and he let out a steady deep breath. He didn’t dream, which was an extremely good thing considering it wouldn’t be anything good. Instead he was able to just sleep gracefully next to Luka without having to worry about waking up in the middle of the night out of fear or because he was worried that someone was there watching. But soon enough he was shook, he yawned, his arms straightening up and hearing several things crack as he turned over. He looked at Luka, then down to the plate of food, then back up again. The plate had his favorite breakfast, country fried steak with gravy, hash browns, and scrambled eggs with cheese on top. Johnny sat up, wincing lightly as he put pressure on his knuckles but it was only a second and once it passed he leaned forward, his body began to shake lightly as he kissed Luka on the cheek, ”Thank you.”
Johnny moved, letting himself slid off the bed as he grabbed the trash from the stand and threw it away. Then moved to the night table and picked it up with his bad hand, hoping to hide it, ”Shall we eat outside? It’s beautiful.” He said slowly, moving away from Luka and out in the shade as he yawned and set the food on the table. He saw the rose, picking it up and spinning it around with his fingers, ”Did you make it? I’ve never seen it before…but did you pick a place you want to go too?” Johnny asked as she set the paper rose down, his eyes looking out towards the city. He was hungry, but he just didn’t know anymore, he was confused and there was still that dent in the wall he would have to explain. He ran his hurt hand through his hair as he looked at him and smiled, ”Did I say thank you? Because I’m supposed to do this sort of stuff for you.” He said, taking his plate slowly and starting to eat.
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Luka blushed when his cheek was kissed and smiled, "your welcome" he then took his plate as Johnny threw the trash away. When johnny got his plate he nodded and smiled more, "sure. it is a nice day" he fallowed him out and placed his plate on the table. it had grilled chicken on it with scrambled eggs with cheese and peppers and onions mixed in. he didn't eat pork or beef. just chicken and fish. When johnny asked about the rose he nodded and smiled, "mmmhmmm, My sister gets sick really easy thanks to a weak immune system. So she taught me how when we were both sick one day" he told him. He then sat down and began to eat.
When he heard the thank you again, Luka chuckled, "it's fine. and I wanted to do something nice for you since your being nice to me. As for where I want to go. It might seem a bit childish. What I want to do is go to the candy store and then go to the butterfly garden. it's around the time tons of butterfly's will be coming out of their cocoons" he said smiling, "and then if we have time I want to go to build a bear" he said blushing more. it was childish but sometimes reliving your childhood and acting like a kid showed you the best times in life and reminds you in the innocence you once had. When everyone was magic and when you had to have your parents check for the boogie man in your closet and under your bed before you went to sleep. he nomed on his chicken and purred some. oh wow this was amazing. as they ate he looked at Johnny and smiled, "Though we might need to head to my house so i can change close. I can't wear the same thing as yesterday" he said chuckling, "would that be ok?" he asked.
When he was done eating he picked up his plate and went to go wash it out of habit. he then realized he wasn't home and sat back down, "sorry.. I was going to wash the dishes" He told him blushing. though when johnny was done eating he took his plate for him and went inside to actually wash the dishes. he put them in the sink and moved to the music in his head. he began to hum and he washed the dishes. when that was done he set them to dry and looked at johnny, "so you want to get the bathroom first? or i can change in the bathroom and you here. I do have to put on the clothes last night to head to the house" when the decision was made he went to the bathroom to change while letting johnny have the room. He tried to get dressed quick as possible. once they were both dressed he looked at johnny, "ready when you are i'll tell you how to get there" he told him smiling.
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Johnny took a note that he was having grilled chicken and scrambled eggs with cheese and peppers and onions, he would remember that. Johnny didn’t know why it was important but it was. As he explained the rose he nodded his head smiling, ”Well maybe you could teach me.” He said as he ate his food. His mind was still wondering every which way, but with Luka talking it helped keep him focused, Johnny laughed lightly, waiting until he was done talking, ”Sounds good to me, I haven’t been to a candy store in a while, and never even heard of a butterfly garden. Nor have a ever been to build a bear. So you made some good choices.” Johnny said laughing, he couldn’t help but laugh, he then listened to what he said about stopping to his house, Johnny shrugged, ”sure, it’s no big deal.” He said, looking out towards the city.
Though his eyes watched as he took the plate and started moving away, only to come back, ”You don’t have too.” He wasn’t even able to finish his sentence for Luka had his plate and was in the place cleaning it. Johnny jumped up, going inside and shaking his head, ”You know this is a win contest, you shouldn’t be lifting a finger.” Johnny said before looking at him and smiling, ”You can have the bathroom, I’ll change here.” he said with a smile as he went to the other side of the bed dropping his pants, he didn’t care, he was comfortable with his body. Putting on his outfit for the day, his hurt hand went through his hair as he cracked his neck. Taking the rental movie and slipping it into the backpack that he took with him on the motorcycle. It was a small back so it made things easy.
Johnny shook his head, getting his sunglasses which he placed on top of his head, letting his hands settle into his pocket as she grabbed everything he would need and put it in there as well. Johnny then sat down on the bed waiting for her to come out and stare at him in return.
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