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Welp This week couldn't have started off any better. (for all of you out this I already wrote this, this one porbably wont be as good as the first one but hey its okay, if it weren't for my internet ******** up I would have had this posted up already sweatdrop .) Last nite I talked with my on again off again sweetie. The begining of the conversation started off well. But towards the end of our 1 hour talking spree, it decides to go down the shitter evil .
I gave him a call last nite around 11:00pm. I figured I would since I said I mite or mite not call. So I decided. He picks up, surprisingly domokun . I felt bad becuz I woke him up. So I fought with him to let him go, but he won. We stayed and talked smile . It was all fine and sweet until something was said. I dont remember what it was so it must've not been important. But I had a weird a** mood swing becuz I have a friendly problem stare .
I got my friend of the month and this wont help me much right now if I want to save this relationship becuz my sweetie said, "You not going to use your pms as an excuse for your outbursts." Yeah well sry if I tend to get really moody on my period evil ! I know alot feel the same way when they get it, they tend to get a little more emotional and moody. When I get my monthly friend I tend to get moody and alittle bit scream PYSCHO scream . But thats not an excuse anymore if I get moody around that time.
Im on a thin line with this. Or as he would say it, "Your walking on a thin line" Yeah okay stare . But all in all, towards the end of our conversation, Something was said and I kinda got mad and then he says "Shut up" and "I'll shut ya up" Thats right he said it and Chris if your reading this, you did say it. It was as crystal clear as the morning sky stressed . I felt Threaten when he said that. I got really upset becuz I dont work well under threats .
Believe me I dont. I been there and I done that and now all that I am left with is tramatization cry . After that the phone died. Thank the lord becuz I couldn't take much more not only that we fought stressed . He also told me not to call him today so I wont. Sometimes I really wonder if I made the right choice, But I know I did becuz my heart tells me I did stare . Okay enough with that. Yesterday I got really worried cry .
Earlier in the day or before I called my sweetie, me and my sister went out to go buy ciggarets. The only reason why I went was becuz I promised Caitlin that I would buy her two packs of ciggs 3nodding . Marlboro reds, two packs. She gave me money earlier in the day when I was at college. So we went to the shell station where Shuan works at. I wanted to go there becuz that is the only place that would sells ciggs to me becuz he works there, and I wanted to surprise Shuan at work whee .
We get there and I noticed that his car wasn't parked out in the employee parkin lot, So I figured he mite of gotten a ride from his mom or something sweatdrop . But when we walked inside he wasn't there, not in the back room or behind the counter. Some woman was, So I gave my sister the money and she got the ciggs. We get in the car and stop at a light. I gave Shuan a call and someone picked up. I didn't know it was him until I asked for him.
He sounded aweful on the phone. I asked if things were alright and he said no sad . I asked him if he could give me a call back and he said he would. So, today rolls around and I gave him a call before he went into work. He tells me everything was alright, just that he had a bad day at work and that he was really tired. He wasn't very convincing so I will stop by his work somehow, by foot or by sister, I will sweatdrop .
In onther case, My one friend who I cut out of my lie a while ago is goingto redeem himself buy getting me the Nightmear Before Christmas DVD Box set. I hope he does get it if not I will get it before he will at the Echlon Mall, becuz the Depfort Mall doesn't believe in keeping in stock stressed . I'll try to convince him to go sometime this week and not the damn weekend.
Another thing, Another friend (what is with the people I cut off somehow come back to bite me in the a**). The one person I hate with a passion that not even god can hold me back from killing her a** and dumping her in the Jersey River twisted . But, she found me on a website I am threw and e-mails me. It was nice but I screamed for like 5 mins striaght scream . It was so weird becuz she wrote like we were still friends and s**t, it was gay stare .
Well I can say this, this post is just as big when I first wrote it. 4laugh LOL 4laugh . Well Im done, I think I got the basic down of what I wrote the first time. Enjoy it and Im outtie like a boner in sweat pants blaugh .
Cya around Space Cowboy ninja .
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