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Hi journal. It's me, Qtronix Yaneza.

It's been a long year since I first visited Mitsuko's Dorm. I certainly enjoyed my time staying there, but I stopped being a resident recently. I admit, it's a bit heart wrenching when Mitsu-san moved, but I also had another thing to be busy with. I'm married to Lilitia Langley. She's pregnant with my child, and we're expecting for her delivery really soon.

But if I took a moment to think, I really have been lying to her all the time. I said there was no other girl that I'd look for, but someone in my heart lingered. Kou Shirakawa. I've just grown used to suppressing my feelings for her. Recently, I got into a fight with my friend, Satoshi Goren. We punched the hell out of each other while spouting out what we hated about each other, and he made a point. I haven't truly taken a choice. I thought I made the biggest choice marrying Lilitia, but it seems like I lied to myself as well.

Don't get me wrong, journal. I love Lilitia a lot. I love Kou just as much too... and I've learned that she loves me as well. We got into a room alone, and we kissed, and we cuddled.... But that was all. I just.... love these two girls so much, but I can't have them both.

Journal... what should I do? I'm already married to Lilitia... She's having my child... I can't abandon her, but neither can I abandon Kou... who loves me as much as I love her. Surely there must be a way out of this, right, journal? If so... then take my pen and write an answer in the next page. I really need it...