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Yet Again
I hate how my family treats each other. We are quick to judge and lash out at each other. Ever since my dad had his second brain surgery he has been even more of a grump than before. He is so negative and lashes out at everyone. I am tired of coming down stairs to a barrage of personal attacks and criticism. My poor mom gets the blunt of it all and I am so tired of seeing everyone so miserable. I seem to be easily influenced by people's emotions and when they are not positive, I get extremely depressed. I have noticed I get extremely depressed over summer and winter breaks because I usually spend them at home. At home is the worst place to be. Everyone is home and fighting or making mean comments. I am just so sick of this. I tried to talk to my dad and tell him he has changed but he does not think he has and lashes out at me when I bring up the subject. I try to tell my mom to just ignore his hurtful comments but she hangs on to it and gets depressed to. I am not sure how to be happy when the people I care about are always fighting and hurting each other. Even now I just feel so hurt and alone, I cannot escape this horrible sinking feeling of total loneliness. I am tired of hurting constantly. I want to stop this horrible cycle.
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