no changes yet....I'm still here. It takes a little while doesn't it? Writing and/or typing is the only way I can vent right now, but soon enough, I'll be able to speak through my mind instead of waitng for responses behind the screen. But enough of that, I'mma vent again here if you don't mind.
I did it...it made me feel like a total b***h, but I did it. I attempted to get advice from wise people I know about relationships...In the end...I had to break up with my wolf of a boyfriend. he says I'm the last option. I still thinks that's a lot of bull pocky. I'm full of bull too (Imma change that too!) He always blames himself when I get upset over my actions.I thought I was supposed to do that. considering all that. I hope he still sees me a person at least. I didn't mean to hurt him that much. I wasn't happy with the relationship because i lost all interest. Why? I don't know. the feeling just disappeared. Sorry if you read this. And I'm sorry if I'm breaking up with you indirectly. I tried multiple times, but I kept crawling back because I felt sorry for you. I still do, but I can't keep hurting myself like this. I'm sorry, but we're done. We are both done. You said you won't look for anyone else? I'm not either. so good luck. I wish you great happiness with someone who will do anything for you.
Recently I've been hearing more about cutting and bleeding....stop it. Please stop it! I've seen enough dead bodies in funerals and I don't want to see anymore! You're wonderful as a person and I want to be friends with you! just tell me your troubles and im sure it'll lift your burden! whenever I see pictures of a darkened line on a wrist, I choke up and make waterfalls from my eyes. I don't want to see any more dead people please...this is more than enough.
"You gotta smile, no matter how bad things get. You can't smile at the end unless you smiled the whole way there."
Love you guys.
Michelle
 UnknownMusicmaker · Sat May 25, 2013 @ 07:58am · 0 Comments |
