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Misunderstandings of pain
None of them understood me...
especially the day I had before...
They think it would be a better day...
Of course! FOR THEM! Not for me...never was because they are the one rubbing more pain on me like alcohol on a fresh cut.
It stings...it scars...takes a while to heal.
That is the definition of my pain...
Yet...you guys are still blind...even the two that I thought would understand...
Never did! They are just like you two! Dumb and siding to you...
I'm on the battlefield all alone!
The question still lingers...ARE YOU GUYS DONE YET?!
I am not a horse you can tame anymore....no...I'M FAR FROM THAT!
For once I thought I was doing a good thing to actually do what you wanted me to do...
but in the end...it leads me to my death...or urge to go that far.
Now...I just feel like locking myself from society...and yes....even if it means locking myself from the ones I really admire and adore...
I gave you hints....I even tried to rebel...but all the plans backfire!
It's fine if you don't listen to me...I never forced you to.
You guys just won't learn the truth...or who I truly am either...
I am through with being thought of as horrible....monster.
Think whatever you like of me...but you will ending up losing something that tried to give as much care and need as possible.
I am on my own...for now...
Living in pain and being emotionally abused...
That is what I call "My life".
-Snow that flutters down like feathers