What do I do? Well, Recently I met someone on Maple story and we were chatting for a while about an anime convention. I asked if he was going to anime Vegas The con here in town and he said that he would come. He would come all the way from alifornia to here just to go to the con. I do have his phone number and have talked to him. Every day while logging off I say Aishiteru {I love you} And he always responds back with that. We both know it is more of a Joke. First of all, He is spending over $200 dollars to come here in one of my favorite anime characters. That doesn't include hotel which, he is going to come soon so that my mom can meet him and his mom so that maybe he can stay here the three days of the con. Recently though, I have started to gain feelings for him. He is funny, Nice ect. Personally, I don't care about looks so that doesn't matter. I have noticed that he has been making comments, saying they are jokes but comments that make me wonder.
Yesterday we were talking and he said something stupid and I threatened to grab the spoon. He knows that jokingly that means castration. He played along and freaked out and I had laughed saying, "Do you really think I would do that?" He paused for a moment and said, "You wouldn't..... Would you?" I laughed again and replied, "Of course I wouldn't, you would want kids with the person you love one day, wouldn't you?" Then he said something that set me back a bit. "Only if you want to."
Also, recently instead of saying Aishiteru, he has been using the English phrase. "I love you." I wonder why that had changed.
Just yesterday I made a topic about this and people kept telling me, go with the one that you know. Well. He had gaia and read it. We were talking over Yahoo and we both know that it is wrong to love someone that we met on the internet but we both like each other. Alot. Last night's conversation was alot different. He was crying. I felt so bad but I was crying to. How could something so stupid cause such reactions from both of us? I called him last night just to tell him that Yahoo was messing up and I could hear him crying over the phone. And instead of saying what we normaly do before we go to bed, we were both at a loss of words for what to say. He finally said that he loves me and then added, and not just in the joking way. He thinks it is so weird for someone to fall that fast yet we both did. He kept saying his heart was racing when he was talking. I felt so bad that I even posted it. I felt that I should of kept it to my self. I guess this is more of a Vent but, what should I do? He lives in the state next to us and is comming to visit with his mom so my family and his can meet so he can go to the anime con with us.
I really love you, My Lee-kun.<3
The L0ve Kitten Community Member 
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I hope things go well. ^-^