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I woke up with morning with a sore throat and a feeling of anxiety. This job I am in right now is barely paying me enough to pay my bills. The people I work with range from horrible sociopaths to trying to get into my pants. It's so incredibly insulting for them to be so cruel to me half the time or try and make me do most of the work and then think I would so easily sleep with them. After the events with my ex-friend, I seriously do not have patience for it. I can't wait till March or April when I can start applying to better jobs. I have to wait till then because of school and training schedules could conflict.

I also have this horrible crush on one of the managers and I can't even be friends with him unless I leave. I feel really trapped in this job. And I am so scared that I won't be able to find another job before my car breaks down or whatever. And I keep thinking about my crush. It's so silly how I seem to focus so much on it. Its funny because in the beginning it really did seem like he was flirting with me and then nowadays I don't really get to talk to him. Maybe its just because of how slow the business has been I haven't around long enough. I really do hope though, if and when I leave, we can at least be good friends, even if we don't end up together, he is still a really good guy I would enjoy hanging out with.

I am going to keep this journal short today mostly because of how tired and sore I feel right now as well as this stupid sore throat. Lots of tea, lots and lots of tea.

Plus side no sinus headache! And my D&D group is working out nicely.