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~What I want out of this life~
When talking to him
I feel calm and safe
Then I can't help
But feel happy
Every time I get a message from him
That I get a little embarrassed
That I can barely say anything
Of everything he says
It just makes me wanting
To close the distance between us
People have asked me once
What do you want out of this life
At first there was no answer
Then when I think about it
What I want most is,....
what I want is you
To be with you and to be in your arms

well since you want to read another on I wrote this one last month

~~Is it alright for me to love?
I thought I knew all of this life of mine was
I thought I understood all I needed
Then at a moment I wonder
"How can this heart of mine feel anything for anyone"
When my heart is cold like ice
But when I think about him
My heart burns like fire
Since knowing you
I, too wish to be near you
I want to feel your embrace
I want someone who would
Hold me as I sleep
I want someone who would stand by my side
And say "It's going to be alright."
I want some to hold my hand
Through all the bad times
I want someone who would
Protect me from harm
When I think about it
I Like the way you are
I like the way you look
Then I get into asking myself
"Is it alright for me to love anyone?"

I'm done and here it is
~You found me
You found me when no one was looking
You found me when I was lost
With every conversation it felt as though
Being held by you!
Then when you said that you liked me
At first I didn't know what to say or do
Then as time went on I came to
Realize how I felt about you
Then I thought I lost my only
Chance like before
So when you said how long
Then you waited for me
I was seriously overjoyed
Just knowing it
You found me when no one really seen me
You seen me through the darkness
You rushed over and pulled me out of that dark place
And Shaun your light into my world
Showing me a different world
The world I live in
which is filled with kindness
Now as i close my eyes
I no longer see that dark place

I want to share a poem that I just wrote, it has no title and it's about you

As I lie awake
I could feel my heart beating
I could hear my heart beating
That it hurts to breathe
Out of my whole life
It was never this loud
It didn't hurt this much
I probably won't say this out loud
Or in person but
You are the only one
That made my heart react this way
So I just go to know
Rather this is real or fake
Because I just couldn't
Handle it if it all ended
In the past when people
Stopped caring for me
Everyone went back to hating me