Ever since I was a child and started having these feelings for other people, I've never felt good enough.
Here I sit, 20 years old (almost 21), having never made romantic contact with another human being in anyway. For the longest time, I've wanted to hold the hand(s), kiss the lips, snuggle the body, and be with the person I feel a strong connection with. I've felt lonely for the longest time and now I feel it stronger than ever. All my friends are with someone they love, they don't invite me to places with them because they feel it would be awkward for me; and I don't blame them. Yeah, I still have friends and I love them very much, but I need that one person to be with right now. That one person I can call mine, and can call me his/hers. The special feeling that you get when you know someone out there actually likes you the way you like them. That someone actually wants to be with you. I've tried and all I have gotten is "I don't want to risk losing you as a friend" every time. I just feel like I'm not good enough. No one is "too good," that's bullshit. I see my friends so happy with their love ones. I want to feel like that. I want that happiness. "You don't want one, they make you're life difficult" is what people say. ******** you, is what I say. I want to love someone and for that someone to love me. I'm lonely. Surrounded by people who aren't.
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