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i...just don't understand why...some people feel like their only escape is death...i...just got off msn with someone that i've only known for under a month...but have talked to on a regular basis...and have come to think of as a friend....and now he's told me that he's gonna kill himself a week before christmas eve...and there's not a damn thing i can do about it....not a god damn freaking thing....and now he wants me to pretend i don't even know he's gonna kill himself....how do you deal with that?? what can i say?? i don't know...and know i'm gonna be stuck thinking to myself..." i knew about it...." and i don't even know the guy or any family so that i can call them and get them to stop him....

i'm just so ******** helpless....so much for the great day i had....