today i felt angry. its been a couple days now that i thought i might be okay from not getting invited to my sisters baby gender reveal and everyone in my family and friends knew before me.. but you know what's crazy is that at least i had my little sister tell me.. cause ill probably be clueless right now and probably never found out until the baby came out or when my sister decides to bring the baby around..
whats even crazier is that my mom knew.. for months and not say anything about it. i just thought that when my dad died that we would all be close.. but i guess it was always in my head.. i dont feel close with them.. never will.
i was always the strange one.. it doesnt matter how much i try to get there approval its never enough
idk what i was thinking.. its better this way. i prefer being alone
no drama = no crying means no more pain
i just wish them happiness just dont include me in family stuff anymore.. im sorry. im just honestly tired.
i really don't know what i did to get this treatment and acting that you care about me and waiting to tell me later isnt considerate..
whats even crazier is that my mom knew.. for months and not say anything about it. i just thought that when my dad died that we would all be close.. but i guess it was always in my head.. i dont feel close with them.. never will.
i was always the strange one.. it doesnt matter how much i try to get there approval its never enough
idk what i was thinking.. its better this way. i prefer being alone
no drama = no crying means no more pain
i just wish them happiness just dont include me in family stuff anymore.. im sorry. im just honestly tired.
i really don't know what i did to get this treatment and acting that you care about me and waiting to tell me later isnt considerate..
