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I just got done eatting what has become my new fave cereal~Golden Crisp ::drools::
My mom said we cant' turn on the heat in the house anymore 'cause it runs the bill up, so we have to freeze our asses off for now on.
I'm not feelings very...jump around giddy happy today. I'm just...contemp, I guess. In my 'people-pleaser' mood, because I just don't have the intrest to care for myself now.
In school, I'm writing a fictional story abotu a slave girl. She's mixed like me, with all my mixed girl problems and such so I can write it out better. The story line is in 1840 (location disclosed), maybe I'll post my progress here? I'm really tuned in with the idea. Its for my literature class, its our unit project over slavery~we just read Freddrick Douglass's narrative. Slavery is weird to me...like when I look at my past its like my mom side of the family owned slaves andmy dad's side was slaves. Its such an...akward feeling.
I'm sleeping all day today...
I have a project for German 2 as well. I have to make up a band and write info on them. Its so stupid, if I go to germany the last thing I will ask is about concerts. I wouldnt go on my own~I'd be with people who knew all that was occuring. Its an utter waste of my time...and teh teach keeps starin at my boobs which creeps me the hell out.
I made a new friend in school. His name ish William. I have many classes with him, we don't...er...talk though. But the other day out of the blue he just started talkin to me which was odd. He's on of those superbly quiet kids with a soft voice and like...he said the rudest thing to me I swear~! I can't believe he asked me how big my nipples were I was so...shocked. 'cause I've never talked to him before...so it was weird as hell.. @_@ We've been chattering eveyday since then. Its been cool. More friends are always welcomed.
Travis (once refered to as 'My Chubby Stalker') ish kewl now. He made me a birthday card and the cutest little poem 'cause he wasn't in school to gimme it yesterday so I got it today~! It was so uber cute~! He's toned down and doesnt frigten me as much. He's actually kinda adourble in an odd sense.
I gotta give my presentation in Chemistry on Monday and I'm nervous about it. The people in my class don't listen, but I promised sweet treats if they listen so I think I have them won over. They're like small children~they'll do anything for candy.
Smoking is bad...this commericial keeps playing on TV with this little baby crying in the backseat as her mom drives smoking a cig. My mom did that and it sucks a** to know...
I'm so friggin tiered...I'm only still here 'cause this is the time around which Onii-san gets on so I'm hoping to catch him. Its so great of him to go to the library to talk to me, his PC broke so he has to find alternative ways to talk to me and its so cool. He's my bestest friend in teh world and I dunno what I'd do without him.
I wonder if he really does care for meh. I wonder if anyoen I talk to really does.
Slasher said sorry for not chattin with meh, just been uber busy. Its cool, I forgive, just would have liked to know for sure if he was alright.
I worry to much about people...I guess I care to much...I hate it, 'cause people always throw it up in my face when I do and it hurts. I just want the few people close to me to be okay, so I can be okay too. But they act liek I'm just a bother to them and it pisses me off. Well...it doesn't realy make me mad. But it hurts my feelings, when my feelinfs are hurt I get mad to defend them....so, yea....
Joker doesn't talk to me anymore. The last I heard he got a girlfriend or something an we just...quit talking. Come to find out, he liked me alot more than I thought. I think I hurt his feelins or somethin along those lines...I haven't heard from Giro either.
I baked some sweet patatoe pie from teh box in the fridge. I hope its good.
I'm not going on the robotics team. It would look good on my resume, but I don't know how to drive and I'm not walking home from school everyday. Its been so cold lately, I wouldn't dare it.
Oy...I watch to much cartoons. My TV stays on Cartoon Network/Disney/Anime in Demand/Nick....unless its educational or a good movie I don't watch anything else...
Today I will spend sleeping. Onii-sans thing says he's online but no respond to messages. He said...he couldn't tell me stuff he wanted to 'cause he was embarssed or shy or somethin along those lines, so he's going to write me. That makes me nervous as hell...
::sigh:: just got off the phone with my mom. I can't sleep yet. In an hour she's comming to pick me up so I can go to the UPS place and get this package Kevin sent me. So after that I sleep.
Guess who IMed me on Yahoo yesterday? Shadow...really weird...I can't believe he did, honestly. I mean, he promised to leave me alone if I left him alone. I held up my end of the deal but he wants my 'input' on stuff going on with him now which is his reason for messaging me yesterday. Rather peculair, I have to keep my head up though....he may be planning something to 'get back at me'.
I guess I'll get some pie and talk to Slasher who justed signed on.
...::sigh::
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