Yuna is feeling very weird at the moment. she is really afraid of loosing Zell as a friend. what i mean is he is a nice person at times and really looks out for friends. im all over the incident that happend but i think it left a scar between us. It's back to like when i first met him. nvr said a word but looked at him. i mean i just got to know him at the end of the school year and the begining of band camp. i really want to patch things up but im not sure if i should. its been two weeks since it happend and we havent talked cuz i thought he needed to cool down u know. and well i thought he would start talking to me again but i had the doubt in my mind he wouldnt but that doubt was right. i miss him and no not just so i can fool around with him. he really was a cool friend. he made me laugh real easily and it was fun to spare with him. 3nodding and i miss that a lot. i know even if we do make up it will take time for this relationship to heal and well i miss being hugged by him every thursday b4 i left to go home after band. i had my chance to talk with him last thursday but i guess i wimped out. i mean it was perfect. Yuna was waitinge outside for my dad to pick me up and I saw Zell go outside after me. i was in the rain so i had an umbrella and that could have given me an excuse to talk to him, u know the shoujo moment that goes liek this "umm u look wet, u want to stand under this with me" that kind of moment. but it didnt go as planned. so i waited and i sat on my book bag so my butt wouldnt get wet on the grass. i saw him coming over for old habits cuz he would sit on my lap on purpose so i would yell at him. but he saw what he was doing and walked across the street. i made sure he couldnt see my face until i got up when my dad came. so i tilted my umbrella so my face wouldnt show. he kept pacing around so i knew he wanted to talk but me being me wouldnt talk. so now i dont know what to do. cry i know things cant go back to the way they were but i dont want to loose him. our time is limited bc he is a senior and his time is shorter than mine. i dont want to make the same mistake i did b4 with fish and not get to know him until the last minute. i want to make my time with Zell fum for as long as i can. cry i mean im really srry Zell but i really didnt have that much to do with that thing but i feel responsible so if u can forgive me ill do anything to make it up to u. i dont want to loose u bc we just got started to know each other. i want my gamer buddy back even if its not the same ne more maybe we can make this renewal better. cry idk but maybe ill write him a note to clear this up. Well Yuna signing off
Ps i was really crying durning this there is some white text here now some small print Zell i think i love u but i dont know and im srry and yes im crying while doing this
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