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If this is any clue whatsoever as to how I've been feeling, I've lately been listening to Evanescence constantly. My mom is going to take pretty much ALL of my pay check to pay for my heath insurance because of my damn Turners'. -_-x

Turners' is a genetic disorder that I have. Normally females have two X chomosomes, but I only have one X. So, basically I can never have children, not that I was ever really planning on it. There are some medicine patches that a specialist prescribed, but I don't even know why I have to have those stupid patches, they don't seem to do anything!!! I was fine before we even knew about it!

Now, my mom is saying that I need to be on her insurance so that these patches will be covered. And, in her mind, that means that I need to give up $100 of my $180 a month paycheck for a job I am about to start. I appreciate the fact that she dosen't have much money, but why do I even need health insurance at all?! I had no problems before we knew about the disorder. I think its just one of my mom's things to keep me in her house forever! If she takes my money, I can't save enough to ever move out! And lately, I've been feeling really trapped in there.

My sister constantly hogs the phone lines and acts like a major #@$! (I don't know why she loves to act this way all of the time, but annoying me is her favorite hobby) while my mom always reminds me of my disorder at every possible chance. As if she thinks I'm somehow retarted or limited in some way because of it. It's not as if I have much more confidence to loose...so why not make me feel like I'm mentally and physically deficiant on top of it! Once again...

I WAS COMPLETELY ******** FINE BEFORE I KNEW ABOUT IT!

And yes, I did just say that word...who gives a damn? I'm super pissed at my whole family (except my brother, but that can change at any given second...he's insane). Ugg...*sigh* I need an apartment BADLY!

My life began as a mistake. A fluke of genetics, so I guess the rest of my life will be a series of bungles as well. I might as well get used to it.
Thank god for the avenues of escaping reality, such as anime, the internet, and role play because otherwise I might totally become undone.

Dragon Fruit
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Commented on: Wed Jan 19, 2005 @ 03:23am


	you should move in with us. whee

Commented on: Wed Jan 19, 2005 @ 03:32am


	Thanks Daniel-chan. ^^; But, you realize that it would be impossible. My mom would feel really hurt. And, after the rant, I realized that she's just trying to do what she thinks I need. It just isn't what I think I need. I know she wouldn't intentionally do those things. But, it's just hard to have my own life here. But, I feel really happy that you would even consider that. 3nodding

Kaylith
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Aibou Sephira
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Commented on: Thu Jan 20, 2005 @ 10:56pm


	seriously, kill your mom you should move in with us, take his room

Commented on: Thu Jan 20, 2005 @ 11:03pm


	I'm not doing that either. sweatdrop

Commented on: Sun Jan 23, 2005 @ 01:01am


	man, youre way too picky...

Commented on: Sun Jan 23, 2005 @ 01:07am


	if she gets my room i'll move in your room. and SNORE. on purpose!! really loud! blaugh xd

Commented on: Sun Jan 23, 2005 @ 01:10am


	is that before or after i gag you?

Commented on: Sun Jan 23, 2005 @ 01:12am


	probably before. xd

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