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Ever since then, nothings been right. I can't get him out of my head, everywhere I look it's a memory of the little time we spent together. And it hurts. sweatdrop I know I usually get over a relationship quick. But this one's effected me most, for other reasons I can't say. But even now, I try not to make others worry by smiling and saying I'm okay, but really. How can I be, when it hurts so much inside. I know I was told to be careful, but my heart let me jump in head first. And now I'm suffering for it.
I can't say I don't miss him.
Because I do.
But theres times when I wish I could yell.
And I can't.
I don't wear the sweater anymore.
The ring? I don't wear it on my finger, but around my neck.
Oscar sleeps on the desk.
And the letters.
I put them away.
I can't say I don't feel used.
When, I feel so much that I was.
And when the tears manage to stop.
Something pops up that brings them back.
"I love you, but lets just be friends."
Though, I'm greatful to still be friends, even those words hurt...
It'll take a while for me to get over this, and I know, other people have had it worse then me, and I shouldn't whine about this to any of you who might be reading.
But, since my friends have better things to do then sit and talk about things. And I'd rather not burden them with my problems. I'll write in my journal..
Ciao.
 [Na no da] · Mon Nov 06, 2006 @ 01:28am · 2 Comments |
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