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DAMMIT!
[******** an idiot...i just wrote a big long post and was about to submit it but me being the stupid multitasker that i am went and clicked on a link on one of the other gaia things that i was on and well...my post turned into that link which should have opened into a bew one but since it's a stupidee...IT DIDN'T!!!!! damn them all to hell! well...yeah i think that Ryan's mad at me...and it's my fault i know that much! lol...i guess my bitchyness is finally starting to get to him! i can't help it sometimes though...especially on a day like today...i'm not in the mood for people to piss me off today and i'm not feeling all that great cuz i gots myself a huge headache and i kind of snapped at him when he said something which is obviously not a good thing to do at the moment because he had just woken up and well yeah...BIG BLOW UP well not really big but yes lots more arguing then usual which is saying a bit cuz we argue quite a lot but usually it's over little things and he said he would call me before he had to go to work when were hanging up and well i think he said he had to work at 5 and it's 10 to 5 and he leaves for work half an hour early so yeah...i really hope he's not too mad cuz now that i've cooled down i'm not even the slightest bit mad at him and really i had no reason to be but yeah...i just hope he calls because tomorrow is the only day i am able to see him until like...monday possibly or maybe like nest saturday (not the one coming up but the ummmmmm 5th of february and that's not cool seeing a i haven't seen him since last thursday...ugh i hate schedules! and living half an hour apart...it sucks...but yeah if i keep talking about ryan i'm gunna cry because wll last day of rag is always emotional...DAMN BEING A GIRL! DAMN IT ALL TO DAMN!!!!!!!!! so yeah anyways...i think that i'm going crazy...or i'm just odd...odd like a pickle you might say...mmmmpickle! i ccould go for a pickle right now! ammie bought me and chels pickles for crimis...they were yummy...cookies are yummy too! i like cookies...i could go for one of those right now too! mmmm cookies! i would rape for cookies...who was i telling that to...i told some one that i would rape for cookies but who was it? hmmmmm that's a thinker...that might be why i'm odd! because i can't remember who i tell things but i can remember the things that i tell...no but that's not why i'm odd...i get headaches from the slightest things now! like being in my sister's car with one of those ******** airfreshener guys in it for like half an hour gave me the worst headache ever! i had to take 3 advil and 3 asprin and an extra strength tylenol before it would go away and now i've got another headache and it's horrible, worse than the first one (but i haven't taken anything for it and i don't want to) and that's just from a bit of sunlight catching my eye at the wrong spot...THAT'S CRAZY! or it's me that'd crazy either one...but i think that light and smells and s**t like that are really starting to get to me...so maybe i should burn out my scent glands and stab my eyes out wih a spoon...sounds good to me...
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