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ok i know its been awhile since my last poem so here is my latest

THE DEED

you did the deed
the deed she though
you wouldnt commit until
later in your love

yet of course she
over estimated you you too much
she gave too much
control over her
very own heart, she will
make sure that
will never happen
ever again

her heart, love, and soul
are now trapped inside
heavy suits of the thickest armor
the armor of hated, sorrow , and pain

she has created such armor with
the help of you and all
of the oain and shattering
of her heart, love, and soul

she will never be the same
anymore, everytime she
awakes from her slumber
she sees your face and
it causes such a thick wall
of hatred, sorrow, and pian

that those who wish
to actually help her demolish it
cant even dent it with
their strongest punches and kicks
of desire, to which it is to be weak upon

within the armor
there is ice, she has placed it
there so that she herself
may not ever let down
her armor nor her wall

you have done the deed
on which you werent
to commit so early

so now you must be
punished with each
passing day you will
see the sadness in her eyes
the ice within her heart
the darkness inside her soul
and the undestructive armor
over her love

each time you see her
suffer more and more
the more you become ice

ashamed with your knowledge
of who could of done
such a horrid thing to
just one creature

frightened for you know
that the anger from the
wolf that hides within her
will come for you and destroy
you inside and out, for when
its furious it shows no mercy

with these in mind
you see her smile and
know that it is only a cover up
for the pian and sorrow she must endure
that you have pressed upon her love, heart, and soul

at times you cant even look
at her, you are confused on
whether should even talk to her now
so each time she brushes past your shoulder
you seem to freeze and remember
all of the love and happiness
thta you both shared
then th torment you caused her

you remember the first time
you saw the true smilke
that she has, and how it
just blew you away
then you see the tears from the pain

though the one thing you
dont know about this beauty
is the thoughts that run
through her mind

she thinks about how
how she will forget those
words that you said and
all of their meanings

how will she forget
the feelings she got from
each time you touched her
forget the smile she
saw each time she
said somtheing that was stupid

she now knows how
she will forget about it
all, every last bit
she must slits her wrists
and neck and send you
the picture of her last breathe
saying "sorry for ever loving you"

now that she lies there dead,
tears for the first time in what
seems for the first time in what
seems years, streams down
your face for you are
the cause of her suicide

there is a note
attached to the picture
it is a poem
it starts:
"you did the deed..."

you read through it all
and realize what she
wrote it for. you now
feel like s**t because
you know that you could
of kept her alive longer
than she had thought

you did the deed
the deed she thought
you wouldn't commit
later in your love

now she will never
over estimate you or anyone
else ever again
for she is dead
with her blood on your hands