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Yeah, you know those strange things that could happen to you in life that you can think up before you go to bed? Well, I had one of those...And it was a sad one, too.

Anyways, before I went to bed, I thought about when my ex would breakup with his new girlfriend. I thought about how he would break up with her, the same way he did with me. ...A Lie. And then I thought about how I would cope with it, like either...kick his a** or let it go. But I went with kicking his a**. And Yelling at him. And In this thought, I remember saying: "IF I DIED TODAY FROM A CAR HITTING ME, YOU WOULDN'T CARE!" (Because, I was walking home because I couldn't stand his s**t.) But, of course, I was just thinking...

But...I also thought even more. I thought about how they WOULDN'T care. And I mean, my friends...They wouldn't care if I died or not..So, I started to cry...and then I though: "Yeah, they would care and then after a month or so...they would forget me..." Then, I got suddenly bad and cried some more...

Then, I thought about my boyfriend, Georgie and thought about how he would cope with it...and in my mind, at that time...he was the only one who seemed to care. So, I pretty much went emo, thought about suicide, and cried. I didn't even want to face my friends today...except, the only one that I didn't mind seeing was my friend Myles. He's pretty cool. ._.; I showed him Gaia too, and I hope he joins..I think he'll like it. After all, he is in the Anime Club. But...He and Jeremy(ex) just followed me and Meesha.

Anyway, I better get back to wrapping...