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it wont go away... it came for me and i ran... this keeps me from doing my best... mabe if i tell the story it will make it less of a weight on me. It all starts with me just laying in a happy meddow, the sky is blue and every thing is peacefull... until i get up, thats when my eyes see the truth. The meddow becomes a used battle feild, the sky now dark, the smell of death in the air, and bodies at my feet. I get up and find that my hand are covered blood, and as i look at them i discover the bodies are all women and childern. I jump up in shock, the dark clowds starts to send bolts of lighting at me. Not being able to move in time, gets hit by the painfull blinding light, the pain send me out of my own body to watch the look on my face, than sent right back into the pain. I get knocked out by the pain. As i wake up, I find my self being watched by 7 shadowy figures. I look at them wandering who they are, when a flash of lighting revils a horrable sight. The 7 people around me are me, each of them with only one of my feelings. One of them offers a hand to me, I try geting up with out the help. The one says,"stay down, u have no right geting up for what u did." The one offering the hand says,"you are doing what is right, dont forget what they did to you." I than try to grab his hand, but as I reach he disapears, causing me to fall forword into a hole. I fall into an endless pit of darkness. I look as though I have no emotions as I fall, just hearing the yells of the one I killed or let die, visions of past going through head over and over agein. Finaly I hit ground, it knocking the air out of me, and as I look up for any help new figures are looking at me, all holding a gun and all pointing them staight at my head. I try to see who these people are, but sudden bullets to the head knock me down. As i slowly die, I see the faces of the ones that shoot me. The figures were my friends and loved ones all happy to see me like that. And thats when i wake up. Pls comment, than i know other people hear my words...