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Have you ever thought exactly why you're living?
Or perhaps why you must live in so much pain?
Sometimes I look in the mirror and gag at my appearence.
I don't even recognize myself anymore.
Not like I ever did and I probably never will.
Have you noticed that you've become cold? Bitter? Demented?
I usually take a black crayon and scribble on sheets over paper until I've run out.
Heh, I can't even think anymore.
And when I try, I end up crying.
Most people say they've cried so much, they have no more tears left.
Not me.
Mine seem to never stop.
And the happiness I tought I had was only fake. A froad.
I miss the old days, when we use to be good friends, even more.
What happened?
Of course, I ******** up as always and forever in regret.
And what about you?
Have you noticed I've been neglecting you?
Lately I haven't been in the mood for affection.
When I think about it, that stabbing sensation overwhelms me.
The hate's got to stop.
And the jealousy.
Is that necessary?
I don't understand, but whatever it is, it's most likely my fault.
Hey... you should know, all of this and everything, I honestly don't mean it.
I'm an ignorant kid who doesn't know when to quit.
I'd like to thank Mana, Yuki and Chris for being there for me. Thanks a lot you guys, you mean a lot to me
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 ShounenAiOrDie · Sun Dec 31, 2006 @ 07:26am · 7 Comments |
