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Just a pain I'm feeling that won't go away. No matter how I try to ignore it, it just back and slaps me in the face. Why must I feel this way. I don't know why. It always comes when I least expect it and when it comes it overwhelms. This feeling was so good before but now it's not. It just turned the tide and stabbed me in the back. Never more I promised myslef. To let this kind of thing get in my way. But sure enough I let my guard down thinking it would be better this time. I was wrong that feeling is evil. It laughes in my face everytime it happens. It justs tears at me and laughing at me, not giving a care how it affects me. Grabbing a hold of me and whispers in my ear "I'll never go away as long as you feel this way.". Why must this happen I don't know why. Does it get a sick statisfaction of seeing me distraught. Old flames coming back and new ones at war. These flames come together and intertwin, forcing me to choose which one to put out. It hurts to choose so I put both out and forcing me into even more pain. Just let me rip out this part of me that has emotions. So I never have to deal with, these kind of decisions.

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