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I can never understand myself..that makes it hard for me to understand others and hard for them to understand me. I wish not to live twisted , yet I have not killed myself emo . I know what my father wants from me and that he'll punish me if I don't do it scream , but I don't listen stare . I try to hide my pain and emotions lol , but I show it to the world gonk crying blaugh . I try to be happy mrgreen , but I end up being sad emo . is this the life that I was destined to live...or was I destined to not live life.. either way I will be sad. if I live, I will be expected to overachieve even when I am already working my butt off. if I die, I'll be away from the ones I love. I know that I shouldn't do things, but I want to do them anyway. I want to do some things so badly that I want to cry when I am not allowed to do them. I'm not sure how much more of this I can take.

"My heart is like a cherry blossom. Even the gentlest of wind will break apart the delicate petals."