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Everyone can now rest. I'm stepping away from everyone and withdrawing back into my shell. It's what I need to do. Either that, or crawl under a rock and die....
I'm seperating myself and living in my own sorrow now. I don'y deserve anything, and I don't have the right to torment others by living. It's a waste of my time and their's. But like my time matters, or even like I do for that matter....
Why do I always ******** up? Why did she have to break up with me? And why did I have to do that to my other ex? I've actually never seen my ex's as ex's before.... But that's mainly because I was so in love with them. I love to easily. All you need to be is fairly cute (my standards are low), have similar interests ( if you're goth, emo, punk, etc, you win), and be nice and fairly loving, and I fall deeply.... No, madly in love with you....
Why do they all hate me? I try to be kind to everyone. Sometimes I go farther than most people would, but I loved it.... But then they scorn me, and.... I retalliate harder and more frequent than they did....
I think I have mutiple personalities.... Part of me loves everyone, hate to see even the gnats die, and want's no one to hurt. Another me sees everything as hopeless and wants to curl up in a ball and die. And the other me.... shivers....
The other me is a demon. It want's everthing to die painfully, and the blood to be on my hands. I've had fantasies.... School shootings, world destruction, even my own family.... I think there is something seriously worng with me, and i don't want it to affect anyone else any longer. So to everyone:

I loved you all,
Our hands though bound,
And all my doing,
So I take my leave,
I shall walk the shadows,
Feed on the worms,
Absorb the hate,
And fuel the sorrow,
It is me who will cringe,
I who will fail,
I'll walk the streets alone,
I'll feel the scorn,
I'm going to free you all,
And let myself wither instead,
I'm sorry you had to suffer,
It was my fault, not your's.