Mindless Self Indulgence=
Rawr phukking awesome s**t!
<3
Well what can I say?
My life has been very hectic lately...
and extremely upsetting & annoying.
But I'm glad that I have my friends (Emily, Tiffany, Max, Rosemary, & Jon) to be there for me.
I mean I know that a lot of people don't like me (actually more like all of my grade with the exception of a few) but what the hell...
I mean I'm not that bad,
its just I don't like to act like some thing I'm not.
Like all of them do practically.
I find it to be utterly ridiculous,
why do people put on shows to impress others?
I just don't get it.
And this last week has been hell.
I mean it's been better then Emily's no doubt,
but I've been thinking too much and things have been hitting me pretty hard.
Like I'm not at all the type of person who cries,
and the last time I really even cried was at my uncle's funeral,
but I just really felt like crying (but I couldn't :/ )
I punched the wall of few times...
and my punching bag thing a ma bob...
But really I was just really pissed...
I think that I have anger issues...
probably because I like to keep my emotions bottled up.
Like I can't let them show,
but usually if I'm not in a good mood it shows.
So my head has been pounding and my stomach is a mess...
I feel like I could throw up but idk.
So the story behind this is rather long and goes back,
but basically...
someone that I was friends with did some things that friends just don't do.
So I had enough and decided it was best to not talk to her or be her friend.
Whoopie...
Well she did some stuff that was bogus to Ms. Emily...
So she had enough to.
Well now we're both not her friend and she's spreading lies and telling people things that well just aren't true.
She wants attention and all,
personally Im appalled by everything shes doing.
And so its just really annoying because she told something to this one girl,
who doesn't like me (I could care less) and now she's getting all of her friends (none of which I hang out with ((they're like Preps )) so yah) to mug me and s**t.
Well it is just so annoying that it pisses me off!
I mean come the phukk on!
I didnt do s**t to this chick in the first place...
besides she has no phukking idea what happened,
she's just one of those people that likes to instigate and start s**t.
Like if it wasnt for the fact that I am a good student and want to keep my reputation the way it is if not better,
I would, no joke...
Straight up punch this heifer in her face!
I mean they are so FAKE!
I can't stand them...
But what ever...
So people like to give me hell,
WHAT EVER!
>=o
And then today my other friend from my bus (Ashley) kept saying how I liked this person when I really dont!
He is just my friend.
Like everything has been going wrong...
and I know its nothing compared to some,
but on top of all this one of my best friends (Tiffany) is moving,
and its not sure when.
So my mind is so phukked up with all this s**t,
I can't organize it.
Im just sick of it.
And tomorrow I'll probably see most of them at my brothers game,
oh joy.
So Im just trying to calm down and think clearly as I listen to music...
I mean gawd darn phukking idiots!
Like what ever...
I guess Im done,
so if you read this thanks sorry its kinda long,
I needed to vent a bit.
Well..
Duces
My life has been very hectic lately...
and extremely upsetting & annoying.
But I'm glad that I have my friends (Emily, Tiffany, Max, Rosemary, & Jon) to be there for me.
I mean I know that a lot of people don't like me (actually more like all of my grade with the exception of a few) but what the hell...
I mean I'm not that bad,
its just I don't like to act like some thing I'm not.
Like all of them do practically.
I find it to be utterly ridiculous,
why do people put on shows to impress others?
I just don't get it.
And this last week has been hell.
I mean it's been better then Emily's no doubt,
but I've been thinking too much and things have been hitting me pretty hard.
Like I'm not at all the type of person who cries,
and the last time I really even cried was at my uncle's funeral,
but I just really felt like crying (but I couldn't :/ )
I punched the wall of few times...
and my punching bag thing a ma bob...
But really I was just really pissed...
I think that I have anger issues...
probably because I like to keep my emotions bottled up.
Like I can't let them show,
but usually if I'm not in a good mood it shows.
So my head has been pounding and my stomach is a mess...
I feel like I could throw up but idk.
So the story behind this is rather long and goes back,
but basically...
someone that I was friends with did some things that friends just don't do.
So I had enough and decided it was best to not talk to her or be her friend.
Whoopie...
Well she did some stuff that was bogus to Ms. Emily...
So she had enough to.
Well now we're both not her friend and she's spreading lies and telling people things that well just aren't true.
She wants attention and all,
personally Im appalled by everything shes doing.
And so its just really annoying because she told something to this one girl,
who doesn't like me (I could care less) and now she's getting all of her friends (none of which I hang out with ((they're like Preps )) so yah) to mug me and s**t.
Well it is just so annoying that it pisses me off!
I mean come the phukk on!
I didnt do s**t to this chick in the first place...
besides she has no phukking idea what happened,
she's just one of those people that likes to instigate and start s**t.
Like if it wasnt for the fact that I am a good student and want to keep my reputation the way it is if not better,
I would, no joke...
Straight up punch this heifer in her face!
I mean they are so FAKE!
I can't stand them...
But what ever...
So people like to give me hell,
WHAT EVER!
>=o
And then today my other friend from my bus (Ashley) kept saying how I liked this person when I really dont!
He is just my friend.
Like everything has been going wrong...
and I know its nothing compared to some,
but on top of all this one of my best friends (Tiffany) is moving,
and its not sure when.
So my mind is so phukked up with all this s**t,
I can't organize it.
Im just sick of it.
And tomorrow I'll probably see most of them at my brothers game,
oh joy.
So Im just trying to calm down and think clearly as I listen to music...
I mean gawd darn phukking idiots!
Like what ever...
I guess Im done,
so if you read this thanks sorry its kinda long,
I needed to vent a bit.
Well..
Duces
~We'll be the same tomorrow....
'Cuz we've all been painted by numbers.
'Cuz we've all been painted by numbers.
