You know what's been on my mind all day? How can people talk about Alisa in front of me as if nothing happened at all? Do they even care how upset that makes me? I tried to ask them to stop but, I only got half way becuase Seirria inturupted by telling me that she's been trying to talk it out. WTF?! No she hasn't! When has she EVER come up to me saying "Hey, we need to talk." or anything like that?! She hasn't!! So if she wants to .. She's gonna have to swallow her pride and come to me. This morning was a great example of how she's a hipacrate to. She says that I don't care about how people feel and s**t like that. Well, she's standing there .. Probably trying to make herself known to me, and here I am. Being hurt every second she's there. She really didn't care!! She doesn't care about me at all ....
I don't think she ever did.
I think I've finally had it with life the way it is. It's always people taking from each other. But then again .. How would we even be alive without having to take away something? I think the one's who make it are those who take the most and get away with it by having no one realize it. But, I'm pretty sure that they also give. Taking and giving ... That's all it's about.
Sometimes I wonder .. if all I really have .... is just one person. That person's always there for me whether or not he is there physicaly. He listens to my problems no matter what. It's just to bad we're so far apart from one another ...But just a few more months until I can have a real reason to see him.
If I last that long.
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