I have almost stopped biting my nails completely. Which may not seem like anything special to you, but to me it means a lot. I have been biting my nails to cause pain ever since I was small and my parents would fight. As time went on I used the pain of bleeding, raw and infected fingertips to take my mind off what was hurting me inside. But now I write. I write to my mother, only to throw it away, and I write to you guys. Letting all my feelings and bottled emotions run free and out of my body. Although I have stopped biting them till I could not take the pain any longer they are weak. I am trying to keep hem from peeling back and breaking. All I would like is for my fingers not to hurt and bleed.
My schooling is coming along well. I have a ‘D’ mark in the class I bust my buns for though. I take notes and listen and tell him the right answers but fail the tests I study for. I just do not understand what is so hard about his class. It makes no sense. On another note I am starting to do my speech on what I will do with my life. All students must give it in the last year of their High School education. I have no one to practice with though. No one has time to just sit and let me give my speech to over and over so I am not so shaky or nervous about the material I have to cover. *sigh* O well. I will use myself in the mirror even though it is not the same.
This weekend was a very busy one for me. I lined up an interview with an artist I am doing a report on and Saturday was the day it all took place. It was amazing to listen to her talk about her life and all the things what make her feel and inspire her to create works of art that make people smile or think. She gave me a few things and I even got a picture with her. I will post it later.
*thinks a bit* I think I am going to make a rather big change in my look. As in my hair color. Now in the past this not worked out so hot. I was a bleached blond with forever brown eyebrows in middle school and then at the end of my freshmen year I read the box wrong and made my hair blue. No. This time I will go with deep red. But there will be brown as well. Think auburn but a little bit darker since my hair is rather dark. What do you think of that idea? I really need help on this one guys. Here is a picture of me so you know what I look like. Me all fancy.
I guess that is all. Make sure you keep reading since I will be putting one up as much as I can. Comments are loved too.
P.S. I am so proud of the progress of a certain artist.
Example: He had a very flat and long view on faces and it never looked quite right. Now he is drawing them much better. And his hand is more line stedy! The inking pen is being used for good![x] [x]
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