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<center>I can't beleive I actually feel so hurt over this.
But I can't let him know that I am...

It finally happened...
I knew it would sooner or later...
He found someone else to love.

Well, of course, I knew he had many lovers...
... and I knew he probably did some things without telling me...
so, it shouldn't have hurt me so badly...
I was supposed to be ready for it any moment.

This has happened so many times before.
... and again, I had yet to sheild myself before the final strike.
After almost a year of us... there is no more.

I still remember our first conversation,
our first time in each other's arms...
everything we did together... Everything.
It's still so vivid and bright in my mind,
the things that have gone on between us.

I want to cry, but then I don't.
I want to cry to let out the frustration and pain I feel...
But I don't want ot cry because I don't want to show my pain...
I'm too stubborn to cry. I won't cry...
I... wont-- </center>